“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To me:) Because you are so drawn to Ruburt, there is the struggle to actualize your emotions toward him in daily life. This of course superimposed on your early fear of emotionalism in this life. Part of your artistic impetus does come from this inhibited emotion, but fresh impetus is received when the emotion is allowed to go outward toward Ruburt; and through Ruburt, acting as a symbol to you, to the world at large.

Now in many ways this applies to Ruburt also. The two of you seek refreshment together, then plunge into your inner realities. He is more emotionally attuned than you, in that it is easier for him, when coming out of his private world, to rush toward you with spontaneity. You are both equally dependent however, basically, on this necessary emotional refreshment. You both drink it in, and it sustains you for some period. It is used in your work, and in your joint work. It forms an inner framework of which you are sometimes aware. (Smile.) Without your feeling toward Ruburt and the resulting urge to emotionally actualize yourself to another personality, your background could have prevented even artistic development. (Pause.) Rather than serve as a springboard for creativity.

On the other hand your relationship teaches Ruburt to direct and mold his strong emotional feelings into meaningful, productive work. The creative strain therefore benefits you both. You should be alert however to the fact that emotional actualization in daily life is necessary, even though at times it will be much stronger than others, for the reasons given.

Because of your natures you will seek this, be refreshed, plunge into your work, and again seek refreshment. While this pattern shows rather contrasting elements you will find a natural pattern; and some emotional actualization must also be evident in daily life.

If the emotional actualization and refreshment is withdrawn for too long, he obviously will show the first signs of difficulty. You will also feel them, but he will be instantly aware of them, and show them.

He will feel rejected, as you know (pause), and this can lead to resentment. If your periods are not synchronized, these periods of which I have spoken, and you are not ready for this emotional actualization, and he is, then there can be also resentment of your part. (Pause.) The periods eventually synchronize and you should both attempt to realize the feelings of the other at such times.