“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Recently Jane sent her dream book to Prentice-Hall. An editor rejected the book but wrote a very encouraging letter concerning the publication of the Seth material. Since we were somewhat confused as to what course to follow, a session was held this evening.

I am what I have always said that I was, and I said it in as emotionally neutral terms as possible: —an energy essence personality. It is he who adds any other coloration here, and then reacts to those. I have reincarnated, as the material mentions, and so have you both. I have tried to explain personality gestalts and the connections that exist between us.

In the past I did indeed avoid using the word God. It has appeared in our sessions of late because it was the term Ruburt thought should be used, and on occasion because it was the word most comfortable for his students. The word itself hardly approximates the true reality it tries to portray however.

I have avoided it in order to steer clear of a stereotyped image. It was when Ruburt began reading other people’s material that the word began to appear. This does not mean that a God did not exist. It means that use of the term automatically limits the reality of All That Is by its very connotations.

Because Ruburt is at times so literal, he then did become bothered by thoughts of setting himself up, or thoughts of misrepresentation; and all of this because of the interpretation of the word spirit, or spiritual, and highly colored interpretations at that. Then he felt guilty because he was not living up to other people’s interpretation of the word.

(9:40—Jane sat quietly without opening her eyes, then said: “He was saying that I don’t have to use other people’s paraphernalia.” She slowly came out of trance, and briefly seemed about to cry. But this passed. Both of us, correctly it developed, attributed the crying feeling to regret at some of our past efforts that were not as successful as we had hoped they would be, regarding using the material to help others, to get it published, etc.

Now. He supposed he was being “good” in quotes, when he tried to follow the interpretation of others, and their idea of good. He felt inadequate, he felt two-faced only when he tried to squeeze the material into smaller molds that cannot hold it. This is perhaps one of the most important sentences in this evening’s session.

One of the main reasons for this was the old rigid childhood concepts, which were rearoused by his reading, not by our sessions. He began to think of himself in terms of a false priest, you see. This could water down the material considerably.

He was outraged by A A, because he persisted in considering him as a “spirit”, in quotes, with all the connotations the word arouses in him. A A is no longer a physical personality, and that is all. He is not a personality fully developed in those larger terms of which I speak. He is a personality however, and he is not Ruburt’s.

Give us a moment. (Her eyes open, Jane picked up the letter from Prentice-Hall briefly.) This is the direction toward which you should move. (Now Jane touched the carbon copy of the manuscript of her dream book.) The energy in this book was not wasted. It was not used as wisely as it could have been. What is preserved of it will be in exact proportion to the amount of perception Ruburt had as to the direction in which it should move.

It is a springboard, and he needed the springboard. Unfortunately the subject was too tender. He could not allow undistorted material about it. Nor would it have been helpful had he known about it in advance. It was his problem and he worked it out in his own way. To solve it for him is never possible. Never in the long run possible.

Had I told him, had I been able to, he would have recreated the problem in other terms, and worked it out in other ways. I did tell him, strongly, to finish the book, because until it was finished he did not even perceive the problem. He had to see the book in its completed form in order to perceive the inner condition.

He does not have the material for what he plans, for one thing. For another he planned to use my ideas. He was getting the idea, you see, and those ideas can best be presented this way, now. (The letter again.) Other portions of the book he planned could have been written by anyone.

Fell wonders if at times he was taken as a fool. He is intuitively aware, but very frightened of his own intuitions. He is also afraid of success.

I can tell you, as you personally supposed, that this is the direction in which Ruburt should move. It is a direction now in which he wants to move, but he has been afraid that it was not a financially profitable direction, for he received no encouragement from Fell, no real encouragement, concerning the material; and he did not try elsewhere.

He took it for granted that the material would not be financially acceptable to a publisher, because he sensed this was Fell’s opinion. Do you have questions?

(“Do you think I was sounding off earlier, when I talked about doing some great work painting?)

Take your vacation. (Pause.) Give him physical activity then. Stay away from his mother until I tell you. He does not have to prove he is all saintly yet. The time will come. (Our cat Willy jumped up into Jane’s lap.) Psycho-Cybernetics was good for him, for it stopped at least some of his conscious brooding. He must rediscover however his spontaneous self for these distorted and adopted and superficial ideas—underline superficial—of religious rules inhibited him.