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(Jane was having some difficulty assuming a trance state. She said she was picking up negative and fearful emotions from me. My emotional condition at the was a mixture of embarrassment for I was about to be exposed; guilt that I was imposing on a friend, for I want to give to friends, not take from them; an utter fear that Seth was about to smash my hopes with the truth. It took concentrated effort on Jane’s part to break through my emotional barrier and assume a trance state.)

Again this is reflected in the way you drive your car. Now, the difficulties arising from your relationship with your father also gave you other beneficial effects. This feeling is somewhat responsible for your success as a teacher, for example. For you are then in authority, and you would, if you could, drive your students as you drive your car and force them to go 85 miles a minute. You are easier on them than you are on yourself, however, and you make an excellent teacher. In the back of your mind, however, you are always saying—see Daddy, I am doing something well—for this father of yours in your mind is always behind your shoulder watching you and judging you; now this is your attitude that I am describing. You feel that you must be successful or he will punish you, that you must be perfect; therefore you become panic stricken at any sense of failure within you, and you overexaggerate your failings so that you came here tonight to me as if you were two and a half years old. You would not have been at all surprised had Ruburt (Jane) jumped up grabbed a ruler and banged your fingers. Now, a step further, therefore, is that you expect rejection on the part of the male for this reason. Now this only applies to men who are older than you. You are perfectly happy and content with younger males. Give me a moment here.

([Rob to Jane:] “Want your glasses? … Suppose you lean forward and take them. Open your eyes. There…”

([Jane:] “Now see, he’s coming through much stronger than he used to, and it takes me longer to learn how to manage the transition. And I can’t remember hardly anything at all that he said this time, except that he was trying very hard to make his point clear. What did he say about Dick Reed, that’s what I want to know. I remember that. I knew that he was telling Pat something but I couldn’t eavesdrop.”

([Jane:] “Okay. What did he say about Dick?”

([Jane:] “Some of them are hilarious.”

([Jane:] “Was that all he said about Dick?”

([Jane:] “But it probably would have helped you both. It would have helped you both now.”

([Jane:] “Remember when she asked Seth that last question?”

([Jane:] “Yes, but there was something else.”

([Jane:] “That’s it. He took off on that because it was of interest. Suddenly we were off on something that was hard to get to.”

([Jane:] “Well, of course, there is always the possibility.”

([Jane:] “Who’s he trying to get to publish it?”

([Jane:] “Now, as a poet, to me that is incomprehensible.”

([Jane:] “It’s a weak point in him and, therefore, I would say no.”