“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(At the supper table tonight Jane and I discussed our painting and writing, and said we hoped Seth would discuss several problems that had arisen in these fields. I was particularly interested in the painting information, and spent some little time explaining why to Jane.

He has felt the need of sleep because he has been overly anxious to set things right. These suggestions, followed, will return him to his proper course. I am able to tell him such things now. Months ago he would not have allowed me to speak until he had a return of symptoms. We are short-circuiting all of that now.

In this life therefore this high technical ability allowed you to paint, for without it you would have been too frightened of the inner sensibilities necessary. It has always had these two meanings for you, these two faces.

The emotionalism within the household seemed to be threatening, and in a free form. You never knew when it would erupt, and as a child you felt helpless before it. Through precise renderings you felt that you imprisoned it, and therefore controlled it. In the beginning this had quite magical connotations for you. Basically you have felt this magical commitment to realistic work, for to leave it would be to break the lines of this imprisonment, letting loose the emotions that you feared.

You are recognizing certain limitations that these developments put upon you. The inner attitudes must be completely changed, though your methods and styles need not necessarily change one iota. It would help you however to attempt larger work. You are afraid of tackling too much feeling at once, and the mere fact of working larger would free you from this to some considerable extent.