“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He has felt the need of sleep because he has been overly anxious to set things right. These suggestions, followed, will return him to his proper course. I am able to tell him such things now. Months ago he would not have allowed me to speak until he had a return of symptoms. We are short-circuiting all of that now.

(Last night in ESP class, Jane tried to contact a newly dead friend of some class members. She said she felt she had achieved an emotional rapport or contact with the “person,” whom she had never met.)

The realism has several significant meanings for you also. Your mother felt literally trapped by physical life and circumstances. As a youngster you felt that recreating portions of physical reality gave you a mastery and control over them. The more precise and faithful the recreation, the more complete the mastery.

The emotionalism within the household seemed to be threatening, and in a free form. You never knew when it would erupt, and as a child you felt helpless before it. Through precise renderings you felt that you imprisoned it, and therefore controlled it. In the beginning this had quite magical connotations for you. Basically you have felt this magical commitment to realistic work, for to leave it would be to break the lines of this imprisonment, letting loose the emotions that you feared.

You did not consider it refined, in terms of process, enough. Neither did you find yourself at home however with the acrylics, that you felt were over-refined, and too far away from basics. Your problem being your overall attitude toward the emotion from which your art springs, for your attitude is then projected outward upon your mediums. To some extent the present dilemma was initiated by your parents’ condition.

(I thought the material excellent. Jane was well dissociated. Once again, she felt as she used to when the voice was very loud—inside it, so to speak.)