“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He wondered about their mental condition in relation to the overall consciousness. Now. Consciousness can never fully express itself in physical terms, as you know. Through various reincarnations the entity attempts to express itself more and more competently within the framework of physical reality.

The personality is less and less apparent within the physical organism. The personality itself has not disintegrated. Its control over the organism, for various reasons, has lessened. In these cases the personality gradually makes inroads into the next reality. It gathers its energy within the next system.

The whole personality has for a long time been waiting in another system of reality. There is no law that says that a personality must fully materialize within a given system, though it is usually wiser to do so.

This is a voluntary arrangement. The boy needs the additional vitality. I do not believe the boy will live to old age. The father loaned this vitality and helps the boy, knowing beforehand the boy’s difficulty. The boy is unable to relate fully to physical reality. When the man called your father dies his energy will return to the self who is waiting. That self will then call back the energy which it has loaned to Ruth’s son.

Your mother is facing realities she would not face in the past, and seeing in physical terms the results of her own inner actions. There was no other way for her to learn. What may seem a disaster to you in your scrutiny of her life, is a well-learned lesson in reality, and a victory.

Now I hope that you will understand me intuitively, for what I have said confounds the intellect to some considerable degree. But I speak through Ruburt, and Ruburt is himself and I am myself, yet without your support of Ruburt I could not speak. This in no way minimizes my reality, or Ruburt’s. So your father’s use of his own energies does not minimize what he is, nor his overall sense of direction.

He did not leave you with no thought. He left you what he thought was the best he had to give you, a need for creativity that he could not express in physical terms. (Long pause, eyes closed, head down.) He left for your young brother a sense (smile) of sweetness, an innocent, untouched quality that will always sustain him.

He left for your middle brother (smile) a stubborn persistence that will help him if he uses it correctly. He left for your mother the questions she needed—what had she done that she should not have done; for that question was important for her development.

Now all of this pertains to our main discussion, for the implications are plain. He, in the old-man body, enjoys the solitude that he always wanted. Your mother was originally the spark that made him relate at all to physical reality, and that is why he resented her, why he fought her, and why she could not respect him. He enjoys the luxury now of not reacting, in his terms. (Pause.)

(Jane remembered the last part of the material. “But I didn’t know what to do at break,” she said. “I was still Seth at break, but I could tell when you got up and moved around, across the light, even with my eyes closed… Everything now is fading away as I talk to you. I felt real funny when the session ended.”