“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The consciousness of the personality has not left too soon, or unusually soon, as in your father’s case, but stubbornly persists. It is as if an artist found the last painting showing up over and over in the next one. In such cases there is a lack of understanding. The inner identity does not understand that it is simply taking a different guise, fulfilling different obligations, or using unfulfilled energies.

The ego is so strong that it clings even to the new materialization. There are two faces of the same problem, you see. As I am sure you know, your father is not unhappy. You never knew your father. The man who was to have been your father left. This does not mean that you were an orphan in that respect, nor did he leave out of cruelty to you. Give me a moment here.

He left you and he left your brothers something you hold in high regard. Lingering within the man you call your father there was always the sense of the unfinished. There was a feeling of the searcher. There was the need from which creativity springs. In some measure this became your impetus. You sensed it intuitively.

He left you things to do in your own way. He worked with photography because he could not paint. He could not create himself. He could not see himself in physical surroundings. As the photographer he was often out of the picture. He did not leave you empty-handed.

(Long pause.) Your father and two brothers were originally part of the same entity. Your two brothers and Ruth Butts are part of the same entity. Now hear me. This is difficult. (Pause.) The main energy of the man you call your father left long ago, as I told you. He (pause) gathered his energies together and is waiting, but part of his energies were given to the son of Ruth (my first cousin).

All of this is not as complicated as it sounds. If you have time left over you help others. If a personality is between systems it loans its energy to others.

You were playing. You were on your mother’s lap, in their bedroom, and he said simply “goodbye”, to you both. And you both knew that he meant it. (Jane sat with her head down.) It had followed a quarrel with your mother. He went out of the house and when he returned he was not the same man. Yet you understood subconsciously, and he left in you that moment the desire to create.

This is not simple to explain, yet I would do poorly by you if I left you with a simple explanation. Emotional feelings are vital. Emotional identities are indestructible. Personalities that you have known in past lives will know you after transition. This does not mean that for their own purposes they have not joined in psychic mergers that you cannot presently understand. As I am joined in a psychic merger with you now, and am still myself, and you yourself.

He did not leave you with no thought. He left you what he thought was the best he had to give you, a need for creativity that he could not express in physical terms. (Long pause, eyes closed, head down.) He left for your young brother a sense (smile) of sweetness, an innocent, untouched quality that will always sustain him.

He left for your middle brother (smile) a stubborn persistence that will help him if he uses it correctly. He left for your mother the questions she needed—what had she done that she should not have done; for that question was important for her development.