“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Often I answer his questions without mentioning that they had been in his mind. Now, I will particularly mention that he has been concerned over various problems having to do with your own father, and with your Miss Callahan.

In a situation such as your father’s or Miss Callahan’s, the overall consciousness is not less, but less of it expresses itself in physical terms. It either has less and less control over the organism because it has not solved its problems well enough, because it has already largely decided to leave the system, but does so gradually; or because in some instances there is a psychic block, which prevents full utilization of energy in this important regard.

The consciousness of the personality has not left too soon, or unusually soon, as in your father’s case, but stubbornly persists. It is as if an artist found the last painting showing up over and over in the next one. In such cases there is a lack of understanding. The inner identity does not understand that it is simply taking a different guise, fulfilling different obligations, or using unfulfilled energies.

The ego is so strong that it clings even to the new materialization. There are two faces of the same problem, you see. As I am sure you know, your father is not unhappy. You never knew your father. The man who was to have been your father left. This does not mean that you were an orphan in that respect, nor did he leave out of cruelty to you. Give me a moment here.

He left you and he left your brothers something you hold in high regard. Lingering within the man you call your father there was always the sense of the unfinished. There was a feeling of the searcher. There was the need from which creativity springs. In some measure this became your impetus. You sensed it intuitively.

(Long pause.) He could not materialize. In a sense he was more your passive mother than your father. He could not communicate. His love of machinery was his attempt, his strongest attempt, to make his being physical. The man you call your father is happier now than he has ever been.

(Long pause.) Your father and two brothers were originally part of the same entity. Your two brothers and Ruth Butts are part of the same entity. Now hear me. This is difficult. (Pause.) The main energy of the man you call your father left long ago, as I told you. He (pause) gathered his energies together and is waiting, but part of his energies were given to the son of Ruth (my first cousin).

This is a voluntary arrangement. The boy needs the additional vitality. I do not believe the boy will live to old age. The father loaned this vitality and helps the boy, knowing beforehand the boy’s difficulty. The boy is unable to relate fully to physical reality. When the man called your father dies his energy will return to the self who is waiting. That self will then call back the energy which it has loaned to Ruth’s son.

Your father has therefore helped the boy. He has also served to you as an example, and he knows this; for you did not want to relate fully.

There was a particular time when your father said goodbye to you. You were two.

Your father was not simply your father. That identity that is his has grown, developed, changed its circumstances and its physical components many times, searching for the psychic soil that will best develop his own potentials.

There are spiritual bridges but they are formed by individual personalities. Your father is forming a spiritual bridge. He is one rung of the ladder, yet he is also part of the rung above him, and the rung below. Because you cannot put your finger upon him does not mean that he does not exist, and that he has not helped you fulfill yourself, and that he has not helped teach the woman you know as your mother.

Now I hope that you will understand me intuitively, for what I have said confounds the intellect to some considerable degree. But I speak through Ruburt, and Ruburt is himself and I am myself, yet without your support of Ruburt I could not speak. This in no way minimizes my reality, or Ruburt’s. So your father’s use of his own energies does not minimize what he is, nor his overall sense of direction.

There will be a joyous gathering together of his identity when the body dies. These are like the weaving together of mosaics, the weavings of the personality in and out, and no effect is meaningless nor without benefit. In this life you were meant to create, and teach. All creation is teaching. Your entity is older than your father’s. You and Ruburt and I have been connected many times. The gestalt, the conditions, have in the past been beneficial for us all.

You have already traveled the way individuals like your present mother and father have traveled. All is a process of development therefore.

Now, I am here in this room. I am also in another place in another time. Your father is in several dimensions at once. All of this is value fulfillment. It is growth.