“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane had been resting a hand upon Billie’s note. Now she held it up. She told us later she’d had the urge to wrinkle it up.)

Now. This note was in a closet… An inside pocket (pause), a pocket up high like a breast pocket, rather than down low. I don’t know that much about (male) clothes. Written in the month of November (that could be), shortly before or after medical examination. (Was having lots of exams that November.)

I think Billie isn’t pleased with certain sleeping arrangements having to do with the father… Something to do with a second floor back room bedroom. (He is now in 2nd floor back bedroom. She never saw house. Moved in after Billie’s death.) She thinks he should sleep downstairs.

Now. Some connection with a porch here (I don’t know if Jerry has one); ground floor—some room off a porch, or off the driveway she thinks he should sleep in (tore front porch off this house—enclosed as sun porch. Tore off—made a plain porch. No room. [Living room TV room off this.])

(Jane’s voice by now had become quite animated, without increasing in volume.)

She says she knew, you see, when she wrote this, but it was no coincidence that it was found now. Also she seems to have a quick… at least now she seems to have a quick, sputtering voice. (Yes. Exact voice description.) She says, and this is my impression: that’s no lie, as if that was an expression of hers. And that she and Jerry have guts and gumption. Like “that’s no lie” are parts of her own speech patterns. (All phrases of hers—and swearing.)

There seems to be a Tony with her now. (Pause. ? Unless lost child was named Tony. Jerry and aunt have heard of a Tony.) Jerry tried too hard, consciously, making any contact difficult.

(3:25. Jane’s voice trailed off and she came slowly out of trance. Jerry and I had said nothing while Jane had been speaking. Now Jerry said that most of the material had meaning for her. As soon as she said this, Jane asked her not to say any more at this time, and I agreed.

(Now Jane suddenly pounded her left fist on the table so hard that the cups and saucers and other objects jumped violently. The gesture was so rapid and violent that I too jumped. I was instantly concerned lest Jane physically injure her hand, so hard were the blows, several now in succession. It is here that Jane was someone else, at least briefly; Jerry later said she had the same feeling, and that Jane’s gestures and voice and manner, including head shaking and language, were those of Billie.

(Even in trance Jane felt the effects of these blows, for as she continued to talk she rubbed her left hand. I spoke to her rather sharply, and would have interrupted the session had the physical violence continued. This ended, but now Jane had taken off, evidently wrapped up in the role briefly, for she shouted at a fast and furious pace, shaking her head violently, eyes closed. I was not able to get all she said on paper, but got the gist of it and key phrases. There were many swear words, and the fact that Jane halted at most of them, leaving them implied instead of spoken, reassured me that she was trying for control in the situation.)

(The first heat of Jane’s outburst is now under a little more control.

Now it’s later and he’s just sort of sitting there and he’s drinking and they’re in the kitchen and she threw something—and she says now she’d rather he (pause) was really full of life again like he was… Rather than like an old man…

Something about Linda (Jerry’s daughter—Lorinda. 5 now), that Linda is a wild one (yes, she is wild). I don’t want answers: is Linda 6? The furniture bill. Something about it coming due. Seems to be important… A bill… Either due on Jerry’s house, or for Billie’s in the past that Jerry’s father didn’t meet, or something that wasn’t paid for. I think on Jerry’s house, but I’m not sure. (He has bills and just took out another loan—Jerry unhappy here.)

Now I feel, Robbie, I got more but I’m going to break… I think there’s something about Vermont. (Trip to Vermont ten years ago, to funeral of good friend of Billie’s—very emotional on Billie’s part.

(3:50. This proved to be the end of the session. Jerry now said that most of the data was correct, except that since she herself was born in 1937 she wasn’t sure about the 1936 and 1932 dates, but would try to check. Jerry agreed to go over a copy of this material and to write in wherever she thought Jane’s data applied.

(Jerry said she didn’t see how Billie could have written the note when Jane said she did, in November 1964, since Billie died in 1965 [just two months into the year] and had been unable to write for some time before her death. As we talked however now, Jane said Billie was “still there” and that she now insisted this was the correct time re the note-writing.