“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This room seems to be less closed in than the one planned… and will make him feel less trapped. If he walks in the night and is restless he will have more freedom without bothering others… (Long pause, eyes closed.) You will have to give me a moment here…. (Pause.)

I see her banging on the table and she’s saying goddammit—she’s having a fight with the father —she’s swearing and kicked out… and there’s kids around. She’s hurt her foot. They’re fighting and they hit each other and she is calling him names. He is a no-good (swearing evidently omitted) …and something about a check and a job and another woman… And she says—I’m trying Robbie to separate myself—and she says by Jesus I won’t stand for it.

I think a name with an M (Harold Malin—she called him Malin—said it quickly), and she’s yelling at him, he’s a miserable…trick to play, and I’m trying to cut out the swear words.

It would be better if he was really mad rather than sad. There’s something about paper flowers. She thinks the world of him but they fought.

… but this didn’t have a goddammed thing to do with it… That she still cared for him. She chased him all over the house one night. And she’s still full of life and he should be too.

And she watches him, and she tries to push him like she used to. (She did push him and rule the roost.) She wants him to get up and do something instead of just sitting there. She’s laughing as if she’s got a good joke… (Jane too was acting out the hilarious dialogue, in a manner that was not ordinarily her own.) She says I’m dead. What are you yelling about? She says she’s here… And she wants him to get up and act like a man.

She wants him to be his old self. (Pause, head down.) I seem to see a distant connection with Wisconsin (? Will ask aunt), on Billie’s part, I think… A wedding anniversary and a string of beads. (She wore beads a lot.) She was trying to get through Jerry to get to the father because she wanted him to know that she was with him as much as ever, and then she sort of laughs and says more so, probably more so.