“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Connection with initials M S, and a long car ride. The father went with Billie on a long car trip. That is, not terribly long, but perhaps 20 miles. (Orlando, FL, 20 mile trip approximately, to hospital, often.) He wore the jacket that day and the note was in the jacket, and she put it there and he didn’t know it was there.

I think Billie isn’t pleased with certain sleeping arrangements having to do with the father… Something to do with a second floor back room bedroom. (He is now in 2nd floor back bedroom. She never saw house. Moved in after Billie’s death.) She thinks he should sleep downstairs.

Now. Some connection with a porch here (I don’t know if Jerry has one); ground floor—some room off a porch, or off the driveway she thinks he should sleep in (tore front porch off this house—enclosed as sun porch. Tore off—made a plain porch. No room. [Living room TV room off this.])

This room seems to be less closed in than the one planned… and will make him feel less trapped. If he walks in the night and is restless he will have more freedom without bothering others… (Long pause, eyes closed.) You will have to give me a moment here…. (Pause.)

I see her banging on the table and she’s saying goddammit—she’s having a fight with the father —she’s swearing and kicked out… and there’s kids around. She’s hurt her foot. They’re fighting and they hit each other and she is calling him names. He is a no-good (swearing evidently omitted) …and something about a check and a job and another woman… And she says—I’m trying Robbie to separate myself—and she says by Jesus I won’t stand for it.

(He did play around, Jerry just found out a short time ago—she did discover it; they did have fights.)

I think a name with an M (Harold Malin—she called him Malin—said it quickly), and she’s yelling at him, he’s a miserable…trick to play, and I’m trying to cut out the swear words.

Now it’s later and he’s just sort of sitting there and he’s drinking and they’re in the kitchen and she threw something—and she says now she’d rather he (pause) was really full of life again like he was… Rather than like an old man…

It would be better if he was really mad rather than sad. There’s something about paper flowers. She thinks the world of him but they fought.

… but this didn’t have a goddammed thing to do with it… That she still cared for him. She chased him all over the house one night. And she’s still full of life and he should be too.

(Jane’s voice rose again in hilarity.) A panic. You’re a goddam panic. She’s around and she says she’s livelier than he is at this point. I have the impression of a great big round object… I don’t know what it is, and a favorite song of hers, I think having to do with violets. Roses and violets, I don’t know.

Something about Linda (Jerry’s daughter—Lorinda. 5 now), that Linda is a wild one (yes, she is wild). I don’t want answers: is Linda 6? The furniture bill. Something about it coming due. Seems to be important… A bill… Either due on Jerry’s house, or for Billie’s in the past that Jerry’s father didn’t meet, or something that wasn’t paid for. I think on Jerry’s house, but I’m not sure. (He has bills and just took out another loan—Jerry unhappy here.)