“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(On the spur of the moment Jane agreed to see what she could get on her own, without Seth. She cautioned Jerry that the effort would be strictly experimental on her part, and that results could be good, bad or indifferent. Jane sat at the living room table with Jerry opposite; I sat nearby taking notes. What follows is not verbatim, since Jane spoke quite rapidly at times, but is close to it, and the correct meaning of what Jane said is always given. Many parts of the record are exact, however.

(Most of the time it was Jane herself relaying the data; but on a few occasions something else occurred, as will be explained.)

Connection with initials M S, and a long car ride. The father went with Billie on a long car trip. That is, not terribly long, but perhaps 20 miles. (Orlando, FL, 20 mile trip approximately, to hospital, often.) He wore the jacket that day and the note was in the jacket, and she put it there and he didn’t know it was there.

She says she knew, you see, when she wrote this, but it was no coincidence that it was found now. Also she seems to have a quick… at least now she seems to have a quick, sputtering voice. (Yes. Exact voice description.) She says, and this is my impression: that’s no lie, as if that was an expression of hers. And that she and Jerry have guts and gumption. Like “that’s no lie” are parts of her own speech patterns. (All phrases of hers—and swearing.)

(Even in trance Jane felt the effects of these blows, for as she continued to talk she rubbed her left hand. I spoke to her rather sharply, and would have interrupted the session had the physical violence continued. This ended, but now Jane had taken off, evidently wrapped up in the role briefly, for she shouted at a fast and furious pace, shaking her head violently, eyes closed. I was not able to get all she said on paper, but got the gist of it and key phrases. There were many swear words, and the fact that Jane halted at most of them, leaving them implied instead of spoken, reassured me that she was trying for control in the situation.)

It would be better if he was really mad rather than sad. There’s something about paper flowers. She thinks the world of him but they fought.

… but this didn’t have a goddammed thing to do with it… That she still cared for him. She chased him all over the house one night. And she’s still full of life and he should be too.

She says she’s glad not to be sick any more, and that she’s changed, but she hasn’t changed that much. There’s something here that she likes her crops…crops … I’m not sure…. (Gardened always—hothouse even.)

Something about Linda (Jerry’s daughter—Lorinda. 5 now), that Linda is a wild one (yes, she is wild). I don’t want answers: is Linda 6? The furniture bill. Something about it coming due. Seems to be important… A bill… Either due on Jerry’s house, or for Billie’s in the past that Jerry’s father didn’t meet, or something that wasn’t paid for. I think on Jerry’s house, but I’m not sure. (He has bills and just took out another loan—Jerry unhappy here.)

Now I feel, Robbie, I got more but I’m going to break… I think there’s something about Vermont. (Trip to Vermont ten years ago, to funeral of good friend of Billie’s—very emotional on Billie’s part.

(3:50. This proved to be the end of the session. Jerry now said that most of the data was correct, except that since she herself was born in 1937 she wasn’t sure about the 1936 and 1932 dates, but would try to check. Jerry agreed to go over a copy of this material and to write in wherever she thought Jane’s data applied.

(Billie was the third wife of Jerry’s father, and she had been married once before herself. She caught the father “running around,” Jerry said, and raised hell. Jerry remembered that in connection with the Tony data, the name of Billie’s first husband was Anthony. Jerry said that as far as she knew Anthony wasn’t dead, but that she would check; perhaps death had occurred.