“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Free choice is always involved. The purpose is always knowledge and development, rather than punishment, self-punishment. The woman, in a past life, was once a man (pause), Italian, in a hill village. We will try to fill you in on times and dates and locations later.

In this existence however the personality of its own free will chose to understand in a different context, and work out problems faced so poorly in the earlier life. This time the personality is John’s wife, being cared for, you see, rather than caring for; being physically dependent. The personality could not and would not, out of fear, try to understand the circumstances and position of the crippled daughter. Not for a moment could he then bear to contemplate the inner reality in personal terms.

This time he plays that part and is completely immersed in it. There are connections. (Long pause.) John was the man with whom the daughter left. (Pause.) Now. (Pause.) John’s wife loves him, and has been made subconsciously to see the good points in his personality. In the past he hated the man who took away the daughter.

The illness itself was secondary. One does not choose illness, per se, for a life situation. In order for the personality to see its own past activities clearly, it felt that it had to adopt a position of dependency this time.

It should be mentioned that in such cases the inner self, as divorced from the more accessible subconscious, is aware of the situation, and finds release in very valid terms (pause), through frequent inner communications, whereby past successes are remembered, and to some extent reexperienced. The dream state becomes an extremely vivid time for these activities, and they are not imaginary.

These experiences, deeply subjective, reassure the whole personality of its complete nature. It knows it is more than the self that it has for a time chosen to be. At our next session we will go into these matters more completely, for there is an inner logic that may not be at first apparent.

His wife chose to solve several problems this time, rather than string them out. This is a characteristic of that entity—an impatience and yet a daring, because the situation represented such a challenge. All of the weak points were intensified, hence the gravity of the physical condition.