“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In this existence however the personality of its own free will chose to understand in a different context, and work out problems faced so poorly in the earlier life. This time the personality is John’s wife, being cared for, you see, rather than caring for; being physically dependent. The personality could not and would not, out of fear, try to understand the circumstances and position of the crippled daughter. Not for a moment could he then bear to contemplate the inner reality in personal terms.

The problem is a challenge set up by the entity for one of its personalities, but the outcome is left up to the individual. This was the major stumbling block, the last major one for this personality. Other lives had been fulfilling, but the personality had never set for itself (pause) any position in the past that was not one of strength.

The illness itself was secondary. One does not choose illness, per se, for a life situation. In order for the personality to see its own past activities clearly, it felt that it had to adopt a position of dependency this time.