“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Another smile.) This is something like the fox he read of, who to get rid of fleas carries something like a ball of wool in his mouth and walks into the water, forcing the lice out further and further. In this case your full cupboard of dirty clothes has somewhat served. When the bathroom is entirely completed with the exception of the ceiling perhaps, then the clothing should be washed, and preferably, this time at a different laundromat.

Now these changes: let us speak of them. I have told you the very practical and symbolic meaning behind the painting and alteration of your physical environment. There is also more involved. As you know, your dwelling has always represented a temple to Ruburt, and the relationship between you. Therefore the alteration for the better represents his realization of a more beneficial relationship, and gives him a hand in it—represents his willingness to make necessary inner alterations also.

The contrasting color arrangement is a most healthy acceptance on his part of the spontaneous portion of his own personality. In a large manner in the past, he went along with your ideas involving the overall atmosphere—underline overall—of the apartment, feeling you would find contrasting elements irritants. The spontaneity is finding beneficial release. He is not so afraid now of making mistakes, or of trusting his own judgment, though he thinks it might conflict with your ideas in any given case. Hence his painting the cupboards blue.

Now, you both had much to do with bringing these events about. Neither of you said no to your Peter, and more important you did not say no to Ruburt. His somewhat induced invitation represented a new use of freedom. On both of your parts, the boy’s visit will show that you have once again enough energy to use elsewhere.

You will indeed have the opportunity to help this Peter at a very important time in his life, and his meeting with you will change the direction of his life; both inspire him and set him firmly and safely on his feet.

The healthy exuberant feelings of all your anticipated guests will also benefit you both, and you will be able to help them. There will be mutual benefits. Ruburt should definitely now concentrate on his book during the night hours, perhaps thinking of poetry toward dawn.

Now, he thought as a child that every night was literally a death, and every dawn literally a rebirth. He was terrified that his mother had died during the night when he was very young, and could not help him. She could not, you see, climb the stairs at his call. Later he felt that she would either commit suicide or kill them both while he slept, and he feared the night. (Pause.) In times of stress the old stay-awake-at-night fearful pattern reoccurs. In the deepest trouble he doubted your feeling for him also, and in exaggerated panic felt that you would feel released if he died, as he felt that he would feel released as an adolescent if his mother died. For in those hours he saw himself crippled as she was, and a stone about your neck.

This frightening identification has lost just about all of its strength. No significant vitality is now tied up there. The writing at night provides constructive outlet, you see, for any lingering conflicts of this nature, and is his way of triumphing over them in work.

He rarely slept for more than three hours at a time for years, without interruption, and the old remembered biological pattern returns. Some guilt here, since in the past if he slept four hours he would have known that he slept through his mother’s call. Mainly however the three-hour biological pattern simply returns.

There was too the need to be alert and awake to protect himself. Through the writing at night, these issues are turned into constructive endeavors. As he becomes reassured again, the patterns will fade away. The biological pattern is not necessarily detrimental, however, and can be used to his advantage when he wishes.

Now, I suggest he take vitamins. Before, his system would not utilize them regardless. For several months they will be of help on the physical level, showing his intent you see, carried out in physical terms.

The classes (ESP) will be of immediate benefit, and will represent a strong bridge toward an effective and satisfactory meeting of psychic and physical dimensions. Their success will serve his self-confidence. Their financial success will go a long way toward the start of a new phase of your relationship.

He should give notice to his Mr. Miller by August first, at the latest, if not earlier. He should expect to make his financial contribution through his classes, and to throw his energy into them, and be patient as he would if he had an outside job.