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Now, you both had much to do with bringing these events about. Neither of you said no to your Peter, and more important you did not say no to Ruburt. His somewhat induced invitation represented a new use of freedom. On both of your parts, the boy’s visit will show that you have once again enough energy to use elsewhere.

You will indeed have the opportunity to help this Peter at a very important time in his life, and his meeting with you will change the direction of his life; both inspire him and set him firmly and safely on his feet.

The healthy exuberant feelings of all your anticipated guests will also benefit you both, and you will be able to help them. There will be mutual benefits. Ruburt should definitely now concentrate on his book during the night hours, perhaps thinking of poetry toward dawn.

Now, he thought as a child that every night was literally a death, and every dawn literally a rebirth. He was terrified that his mother had died during the night when he was very young, and could not help him. She could not, you see, climb the stairs at his call. Later he felt that she would either commit suicide or kill them both while he slept, and he feared the night. (Pause.) In times of stress the old stay-awake-at-night fearful pattern reoccurs. In the deepest trouble he doubted your feeling for him also, and in exaggerated panic felt that you would feel released if he died, as he felt that he would feel released as an adolescent if his mother died. For in those hours he saw himself crippled as she was, and a stone about your neck.

There is too much at stake to backtrack, and the nursery school position has unpleasant associations, unfortunately. He could try both for a while, but this would be by far the most difficult of choices, and I do not recommend it.

My heartiest wishes to you both, and good evening.