“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Before tonight’s session I had emphasized to Jane that I was very much interested to learn whether we had uncovered all the reasons for her symptoms through the various means we have tried—our pendulums, dreams, these sessions, etc. I asked her to let Seth speak freely.)

As he becomes reassured again you see he will not require as many proclamations. The rejection he felt however was quite real, and you did feel it—the jealousy—for whatever reason, was felt as valid. Therefore, the necessity for the reassurances.

Your intimate lives, your intimate experiences, suffered. Ruburt, sensing your jealousy, ran away and would not be deeply touched. This was to some extent in retaliation. Also however he had shut down so many spontaneous feelings toward you, because he feared them, that it was difficult to be spontaneous when he wanted to be.

This was largely caused by his realization of your jealousy, and his reaction. He must learn to express fearful or negative thought, as they occur, so that they do not build up this charge again. Simply because his energy is so concentrated it resulted, misdirected, in such severe symptoms.

His explosive energy adds vitality and variety to your more evenly regulated pattern. You have often kept him from being hurt by overinvolvement. But then this was carried to a fault, you see, in the stress period.

Without each other, your possibilities for fulfillment would have been far less. He knew you were less emotionally demonstrative than he, and more or less accepted this, knowing that underneath was a foundation upon which he could rely. It was this foundation he lost faith in, that so frightened him.

In one sense, a limited sense, you could say that he acquiesced, feeling that his symptoms would break through the barrier. But he resented having to be ill in order to reach you. In a way, it was a plea for help, and he resented the need to plead for help.

There is an intuitive bond between you however, very deep. His poetry to you is good evidence of this. You do inspire him. He senses and reacts to parts of you with which neither of you are consciously familiar. He speaks out your sense of wonder and fantasy, that was squelched when you were a child, but finds release in your work.