“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your intimate lives, your intimate experiences, suffered. Ruburt, sensing your jealousy, ran away and would not be deeply touched. This was to some extent in retaliation. Also however he had shut down so many spontaneous feelings toward you, because he feared them, that it was difficult to be spontaneous when he wanted to be.

It demands little in physical terms. However he thrives and literally demands a luxurious sense of inner love, an abundance of warmth and affection. Given this, his energy on your behalf and in your behalf knows no bounds within the potentials of his personality.

In one sense, a limited sense, you could say that he acquiesced, feeling that his symptoms would break through the barrier. But he resented having to be ill in order to reach you. In a way, it was a plea for help, and he resented the need to plead for help.

There is an intuitive bond between you however, very deep. His poetry to you is good evidence of this. You do inspire him. He senses and reacts to parts of you with which neither of you are consciously familiar. He speaks out your sense of wonder and fantasy, that was squelched when you were a child, but finds release in your work.

You, incidentally, can use this sense of loyalty, for you did not receive it in the past in this existence. It brings out the best in you and in your work, and represents a rich emotional loam that you need to draw out certain elements of your own personality. On Ruburt’s part it is the main tie with the physical universe. A strong statement. But secure in it, you both are free to reach into other existences. Without it you would not be tied securely enough to this earth. There is an interaction, naturally. The loyalty is there but you bring it out and it serves you both therefore. Without you, literally, Ruburt in this physical life would not be able to express nor free it. Do you have questions?