“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He fears that you will feel forced to give him more love than you want to. This is partially a leftover from his realization of your feelings of jealousy, you see. All of this material is very important.

Ruburt must make an attempt, and a good one, to express his feelings, positive and negative.

This is a last-ditch escape so to speak, but dangerous because its signs are not obvious. “Well, all right, I will close you out then.” This is the emotional feeling behind it. Such a recourse, again, is only a desperate final one, but with his stubbornness it would be very final, and a means of self-defense.

His symptoms were adopted in place of such a move. This is a highly significant piece of material.

Now. For some belated notes on your wife’s personality. They (smile) may be beneficial at this late date even. His loyalty is indeed deep and unswerving. It has been yours for several existences. It is given, his loyalty, to very few, even throughout various lives.

It demands little in physical terms. However he thrives and literally demands a luxurious sense of inner love, an abundance of warmth and affection. Given this, his energy on your behalf and in your behalf knows no bounds within the potentials of his personality.

If he feels this is withdrawn his secure confidence is shattered and his energy dwindles. In his case however there is no danger that you would be emotionally smothered, for he has also this love of work and isolation, and feeling for his and your independence.

We are working through some material here. Give us a moment. (Pause.) He will give you immeasurable freedom when these requirements are met. I say give you, since these are freedoms an individual could not obtain alone. His literally tremendous energy, given spontaneity through his confidence in you, is to some degree then turned over to you, and can be used in your work.

This is difficult to explain. (Long pause.) You both use energy in different ways. He suddenly began to withdraw his energy in fear, and created what you could think of as an implosive hole that had begun to drain your existences.

This was largely caused by his realization of your jealousy, and his reaction. He must learn to express fearful or negative thought, as they occur, so that they do not build up this charge again. Simply because his energy is so concentrated it resulted, misdirected, in such severe symptoms.

The small pillow he uses beneath his regular bed pillow.

Now. For your personalities in this existence, you both made the ideal choices. You had been waiting for each other. The possibilities of your relationship had the power to bring about the fullest possible developments of your personalities. Ruburt’s energy has an explosive nature. Your more regulated pattern adds sustenance to his own, and sustains him when his energy output is low momentarily.

His explosive energy adds vitality and variety to your more evenly regulated pattern. You have often kept him from being hurt by overinvolvement. But then this was carried to a fault, you see, in the stress period.

In one sense, a limited sense, you could say that he acquiesced, feeling that his symptoms would break through the barrier. But he resented having to be ill in order to reach you. In a way, it was a plea for help, and he resented the need to plead for help.

There is an intuitive bond between you however, very deep. His poetry to you is good evidence of this. You do inspire him. He senses and reacts to parts of you with which neither of you are consciously familiar. He speaks out your sense of wonder and fantasy, that was squelched when you were a child, but finds release in your work.

He cannot love without this unswerving loyalty. It is a part of him. You bring it out, and if you did not do so a very vital part of him would remain unexpressed. The other face of this loyalty is the complete closing out that I mentioned earlier. A partial loyalty of this nature is not a part of his makeup. Do you have questions?