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The tree, or trees, Ruburt had painted on the kitchen wall, were not beneficial symbols. They were winter trees, you see, done in black. If he intends decorating there, sun symbols would help.

Soon the old native exuberance will completely return, and now there will be a direction for it. A very small point here for you. You resented your mother’s frequent house cleaning for several reasons. First of all you deeply feared that in rearranging her house she was merely playing with surface arrangements, and would not touch the deeper dilemmas of the family.

But you also feared the opposite, that she would disrupt a status quo that was highly delicate. Unpleasant but bearable, and that the resulting situation would be pure chaos and disruption. You have feared disruption, not realizing that it results in creation, and yes, in birth.

You did not want children, physically speaking. You wanted to reach out in the way that people do when they have children. You wanted a fulfillment indeed, that would of course have physical repercussions in three-dimensional terms, but that was not primarily physical.

I am hardly a child substitute, you see. Conversely, if you had a child it would have been much more difficult for you to make communication with me, because of the direction of your own energy and focus. Because of the physical connotations Ruburt’s age was a fairly significant circumstance as far as the beginning (underlined) of his development was concerned. He finally knew that it would not be in usual physical terms.