“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s habit is to direct his energies unstintingly focused in a more or less single direction. When he feels desolate, therefore, the desolation you see is almost complete to him.

He is as stubborn in it as he is in preserving his joy when he is joyful. Compromise is very difficult for him. In periods of spontaneity therefore he will sometimes be overly spontaneous, and in a times of rigidity will be overly rigid.

He was beginning to learn a beneficial balance when this trouble began. His loyalty to you is unswerving, as unfortunately many of his bitter attitudes toward those in his past are unswerving.

He tempers the bitterness with understanding more than he realizes however, and because of his particular sense of right and wrong, he overly blames himself for what bitterness he has. He is learning now, finally, to be more flexible. The stubborn qualities will later serve us well. The release and self-knowledge gained is this last painful episode will allow him to bring more freedom to our sessions.

This will result in complete belief on his part, and this belief will enable us to achieve results denied us in the past. He will fight for us, you see. He is now completely determined upon health, and the recovery will be remarkably fast, now that it has truly begun, simply because his released energies will now work at it with their accustomed vigor—only now for his benefit.

The releases in his personality could have been achieved in other, easier methods. Nevertheless without these alterations our work could not be fulfilled in all the ways possible. His rigidity of attitude resulted in a trend for self-destruction, tempered it is true, but dangerous. There was a resultant manufacture of various chemicals within his system that tended to reproduce and perpetuate the depressed state of mind. An overproduction of adrenaline that kept him stirred up, but also an overproduction of certain chemicals that physically slowed him down.

There is far less danger when his spontaneity overerupts. The ensuing difficulties, if any, are those he dealt when as an adolescent. Then they were heightened by lack of experience, you see. He feared them, adopting instead now the opposite tendency.

It was difficult in very early years for his mother to get about in the morning. Later he learned that his aunt was a slow riser, feeling sickly in the mornings. These two suggestions had much to do with the early morning symptoms, and these also, you see, are now vanishing.

When he felt he could not act following his uncompromising nature, he attempted to submit, you see. The resulting resentment was the true basis for all symptoms, and attracted the other sensitivities that nourished them.

I am casting about to see what I have missed of importance. (Pause.) A bedroom with two windows would be of help but is not feasible now. A pale yellow on the walls rather than the white would be of benefit, in that room, you see. It is imperative that Ruburt throw considerable energy into his idea for classes; whether in writing or in psychic matters, that all available, practically available time and effort be given here to such an endeavor; that it not be adopted halfheartedly.

The predictions concerning money were made before Ruburt’s energies were so misdirected, thrown so suddenly against himself, that even I was appalled. They were based as you know on probabilities, and this tumultuous reaction, while a probability, was not a strong one. All these energies were suddenly swept in the wrong direction. They are now swinging to his aid, and you can now at least be thankful for their amazing nature, for the healthful turn will be ever more evident.

Give us a moment. (Pause.) The thyroid, strangely enough, was depressed in activity because he feared you see his previous history. The nervous energy however grew by leaps and bounds despite this fact, and the body did not properly use the foods that were consumed.

Your attitude has much to do with his improvement. He felt alone, this his fault, surely as much as yours, though no fault in those terms is meant. At his worse moments, he thought that he could not love a cripple, since he did not love his mother, so how could you.

He will most likely still need help in embarking on your vacation, although his progress is improving. There may be mail from Wisconsin that will have a bearing on some future plans. A male involved in connection with the psychic matters. He has not purchased shifts because of the old picture of his mother in the sun, wearing a dress you see. The loss of weight was partially a defense mechanism, for his mother grew stout. He did not feel it safe, you see.

(“Why aren’t his arms straight?”)

Give us a moment with this. Not in order necessarily here; at one time he feared a wheelchair, and has a long-forgotten image of his mother in one, with bent arms. He felt helpless to push away his difficulties, and unable to support himself.

The arm crookedness developed shortly after he turned down the summer position, though by stages, and is related to the fact that the dream book, a possible means of support, is not ready to be sent out. Work on the dream book will help relieve the arm symptoms. Indeed his fingers released when he began to type again on that book.

His pendulum answered correctly. However the reasons I have given for evening symptoms entered in here. The night sensitivity, you see, vanished when our sessions began, and returned masked with symptoms when his difficulties began. Speaking his name will also help here. Such instances will become further separated however, and finally disappear.

This evening’s present symptoms are the result of the fact that Friday is already thought of as a school day. These can be dissipated if Ruburt reminds himself before sleeping of his intent to work on the dream book tomorrow and Friday morning.

Your suggestion of time in the sun daily is excellent. An evening walk is also advantageous. He will literally soak up affection now as he soaks up the sun, and it will have equal healing effect. The resulting exuberance and strength will be solidly based, and add to your overall happiness as well as Ruburt’s. All of these help him release his energy and focus it in the proper directions. This energy, used to solve your financial problem, or Ruburt’s financial problem, will yield rich benefits. Now to Ruburt: I am with you this evening, and to you both my heartiest wishes.

His mother often demanded the bedpan just before meals, and he thought this was to annoy him. He did it to annoy you, and show resentment. Also to deny himself, since the food would be cold.