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Ruburt’s habit is to direct his energies unstintingly focused in a more or less single direction. When he feels desolate, therefore, the desolation you see is almost complete to him.

He is as stubborn in it as he is in preserving his joy when he is joyful. Compromise is very difficult for him. In periods of spontaneity therefore he will sometimes be overly spontaneous, and in a times of rigidity will be overly rigid.

He tempers the bitterness with understanding more than he realizes however, and because of his particular sense of right and wrong, he overly blames himself for what bitterness he has. He is learning now, finally, to be more flexible. The stubborn qualities will later serve us well. The release and self-knowledge gained is this last painful episode will allow him to bring more freedom to our sessions.

The releases in his personality could have been achieved in other, easier methods. Nevertheless without these alterations our work could not be fulfilled in all the ways possible. His rigidity of attitude resulted in a trend for self-destruction, tempered it is true, but dangerous. There was a resultant manufacture of various chemicals within his system that tended to reproduce and perpetuate the depressed state of mind. An overproduction of adrenaline that kept him stirred up, but also an overproduction of certain chemicals that physically slowed him down.

Your suggestion that he arise at once is an excellent one, intuitively received. This of course presupposes the fact that the symptoms are present to alarm him. If the alarm is set at four-hour intervals, this can eliminate the onset of symptoms, but in each case he would then rise and move about some. This does not seem necessary since the symptoms are now minimized, but I believe the step would prevent them entirely.

He may, on the other hand, tell himself that I am there, watching out for him, and I shall be glad to do so as I have on many an occasion. Often I could not get through to him, but now I will tell him that I will be present.

If he had awakened you, or if he would, the comfort of your presence would largely dissipate the symptoms, for it is the fear of being alone and immobile, you see, that is to him at such times, because of the parent, terrifying. This condition is temporary and already disappearing, as you know.

(“What happened to him in the middle of last night?”)

Very good. Or grape or banana. (Long pause.) The concentration upon the dream book, along with other writing ideas and the classes, will insure the rapid recovery. The vacation will break up any lingering patterns of habit, and serve to disconnect him from negative elements of the past. The water and the sun will have an overall curative effect, and your continuing overall support will add the necessary and quite vital reassurance.

Your suggestion of time in the sun daily is excellent. An evening walk is also advantageous. He will literally soak up affection now as he soaks up the sun, and it will have equal healing effect. The resulting exuberance and strength will be solidly based, and add to your overall happiness as well as Ruburt’s. All of these help him release his energy and focus it in the proper directions. This energy, used to solve your financial problem, or Ruburt’s financial problem, will yield rich benefits. Now to Ruburt: I am with you this evening, and to you both my heartiest wishes.

His mother often demanded the bedpan just before meals, and he thought this was to annoy him. He did it to annoy you, and show resentment. Also to deny himself, since the food would be cold.