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Ruburt’s habit is to direct his energies unstintingly focused in a more or less single direction. When he feels desolate, therefore, the desolation you see is almost complete to him.

He is as stubborn in it as he is in preserving his joy when he is joyful. Compromise is very difficult for him. In periods of spontaneity therefore he will sometimes be overly spontaneous, and in a times of rigidity will be overly rigid.

He was beginning to learn a beneficial balance when this trouble began. His loyalty to you is unswerving, as unfortunately many of his bitter attitudes toward those in his past are unswerving.

He tempers the bitterness with understanding more than he realizes however, and because of his particular sense of right and wrong, he overly blames himself for what bitterness he has. He is learning now, finally, to be more flexible. The stubborn qualities will later serve us well. The release and self-knowledge gained is this last painful episode will allow him to bring more freedom to our sessions.

This will result in complete belief on his part, and this belief will enable us to achieve results denied us in the past. He will fight for us, you see. He is now completely determined upon health, and the recovery will be remarkably fast, now that it has truly begun, simply because his released energies will now work at it with their accustomed vigor—only now for his benefit.

He felt danger strongly but could not run, you see. The resultant heaviness of limb, the swelling of various portions of the body having to do with an overproduction of a chemical, I believe, called pectorin, or something very similar.

There is far less danger when his spontaneity overerupts. The ensuing difficulties, if any, are those he dealt when as an adolescent. Then they were heightened by lack of experience, you see. He feared them, adopting instead now the opposite tendency.

Your suggestion that he arise at once is an excellent one, intuitively received. This of course presupposes the fact that the symptoms are present to alarm him. If the alarm is set at four-hour intervals, this can eliminate the onset of symptoms, but in each case he would then rise and move about some. This does not seem necessary since the symptoms are now minimized, but I believe the step would prevent them entirely.

He may, on the other hand, tell himself that I am there, watching out for him, and I shall be glad to do so as I have on many an occasion. Often I could not get through to him, but now I will tell him that I will be present.

If he had awakened you, or if he would, the comfort of your presence would largely dissipate the symptoms, for it is the fear of being alone and immobile, you see, that is to him at such times, because of the parent, terrifying. This condition is temporary and already disappearing, as you know.

It was difficult in very early years for his mother to get about in the morning. Later he learned that his aunt was a slow riser, feeling sickly in the mornings. These two suggestions had much to do with the early morning symptoms, and these also, you see, are now vanishing.

When he felt he could not act following his uncompromising nature, he attempted to submit, you see. The resulting resentment was the true basis for all symptoms, and attracted the other sensitivities that nourished them.

The dream book should be concentrated upon, and the other ideas he has in mind worked up. He will quite possibly end up finally with other quarters for classes.

Give us a moment. (Pause.) The thyroid, strangely enough, was depressed in activity because he feared you see his previous history. The nervous energy however grew by leaps and bounds despite this fact, and the body did not properly use the foods that were consumed.

Your attitude has much to do with his improvement. He felt alone, this his fault, surely as much as yours, though no fault in those terms is meant. At his worse moments, he thought that he could not love a cripple, since he did not love his mother, so how could you.

He will most likely still need help in embarking on your vacation, although his progress is improving. There may be mail from Wisconsin that will have a bearing on some future plans. A male involved in connection with the psychic matters. He has not purchased shifts because of the old picture of his mother in the sun, wearing a dress you see. The loss of weight was partially a defense mechanism, for his mother grew stout. He did not feel it safe, you see.

Give us a moment with this. Not in order necessarily here; at one time he feared a wheelchair, and has a long-forgotten image of his mother in one, with bent arms. He felt helpless to push away his difficulties, and unable to support himself.

The arm crookedness developed shortly after he turned down the summer position, though by stages, and is related to the fact that the dream book, a possible means of support, is not ready to be sent out. Work on the dream book will help relieve the arm symptoms. Indeed his fingers released when he began to type again on that book.

You may take your break. He felt incapable of motion, you see, and interpreted this physically. Now the symptoms vanish because he realizes he does have mobility and freedom. He did not dare look to the left, nor the right.

Your suggestion of time in the sun daily is excellent. An evening walk is also advantageous. He will literally soak up affection now as he soaks up the sun, and it will have equal healing effect. The resulting exuberance and strength will be solidly based, and add to your overall happiness as well as Ruburt’s. All of these help him release his energy and focus it in the proper directions. This energy, used to solve your financial problem, or Ruburt’s financial problem, will yield rich benefits. Now to Ruburt: I am with you this evening, and to you both my heartiest wishes.

An old response, caused by the necessity to iron on occasion as a child on demand, and her mother’s unreasoning fastidiousness, as the child saw it. Here a mark, one of the few small marks, of rebellion he allotted himself. You had another question in mind.

His mother often demanded the bedpan just before meals, and he thought this was to annoy him. He did it to annoy you, and show resentment. Also to deny himself, since the food would be cold.