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He was beginning to learn a beneficial balance when this trouble began. His loyalty to you is unswerving, as unfortunately many of his bitter attitudes toward those in his past are unswerving.

The releases in his personality could have been achieved in other, easier methods. Nevertheless without these alterations our work could not be fulfilled in all the ways possible. His rigidity of attitude resulted in a trend for self-destruction, tempered it is true, but dangerous. There was a resultant manufacture of various chemicals within his system that tended to reproduce and perpetuate the depressed state of mind. An overproduction of adrenaline that kept him stirred up, but also an overproduction of certain chemicals that physically slowed him down.

Your attitude has much to do with his improvement. He felt alone, this his fault, surely as much as yours, though no fault in those terms is meant. At his worse moments, he thought that he could not love a cripple, since he did not love his mother, so how could you.