“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Then, re-reading some material I was struck by the massive intellect behind it, the real beauty of the material, and sad that I did not really let myself realize it before; indeed that I had allowed myself to be affected by the lesser writings of others; even to the extent that in some late sessions it affected the material. Told my class last night the whole bit, and said that from now on classes were to be focused about the material; we were going to study it from scratch; this was my life work, my direction, what I was meant to do. Realized yesterday also, going over old notes, that my original ‘cosmic consciousness’ (borrowed phrases again) experience was with The Physical Universe as Idea Construction which turned into and developed into the sessions and Seth Material; the natural, intuitive, and logical development; which to a large extent I relegated to the background and sometimes even distrusted. (Largely because I feared setting myself up as some sort of a ‘false prophet’ or something; or distrusted myself, rather than it, actually.)

During class, my jaw started to bother me, then badly, so I couldn’t get to sleep. Pendulum said, negative suggestion having to do with some old notes I read, plus not wanting to hurt Venice. Hypnotism got me to sleep. Noticed however even during this, a strange and delightful and sudden release, physically with arms, legs, shoulders, neck. This morning, the release much more noticeable. Hands far stronger, left hand definitely has resumed—overnight?—a far more normal appearance, and both much, much stronger; arms much better, neck flexible, shoulders; even think arms have ‘let down,’ a bit. Spiritual and (psychic) sense of joy, thankfulness, release.