“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“Would you rather speak at a faster rate?”)

The questioner is indeed on a pilgrimage to find her own personality. You cannot substitute some other personality, you see. It would work very well, but it does not work that way.

You fear the aggressive portions of your own personality, and instead of allowing these portions to work for you, you are sending them out on a counterfeit journey after an object, another person, with whom you would not be happy, and for whom you have little basic respect.

Telepathically you were aware of the full nature of the male’s relationship with his mother. You chase him precisely because you were fairly certain you would not have him, for it was the search, again, that was important. It is a substitute for facing your own destiny. It is a counterfeit living pattern, and you are using it to avoid developing your full strength and stature as a personality.

You would not be happy with the male, and you intuitively realize this. The obsession to have him grows precisely in proportion to your inner realization that you do not want him, but only the excitement involved in searching for him. You must end the search and face the self.

Nor would such a counterfeit pattern suit you for long. Self-questioning and doubts would begin to drive you to distraction. You have inner strength that will give you your own sense of identity and continuity. Any inner security will come from this. You cannot abdicate, you see.

I have been speaking rather steadily, Joseph, without a break, for my friend Ruburt does not like me to speak so plainly, and I would prefer continuing briefly.

(Seth’s pace was very fast in here, and I missed some material. I did not ask Seth to slow down, both in the interests of spontaneity for Jane, and because Pat was recording the session. Seth now told Pat she had writing ability, especially for historical works, and that she would do well in writing and history connected with the Tudor period.)

…Give us a moment. (Pause.) You would do well with male characters and be fairly strong in plotting. You must above all things avoid superficialities, for you use them as excuses. You laugh at yourself, and then think that this means that you do not have to take yourself seriously.