“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There are definite reasons why the questioner chose the particular personality for this quest. An attempt was made to find a suitable substitute, you see, and a particular group of circumstances then seized upon, in order to initiate the proceedings. The questioner is subconsciously aware of those abilities that should be developed in her own personality, and attempts to project these outward into someone else. Then you see you search for the someone else, neatly labeled, but the capabilities and personality developments must be pursued within the self. You cannot chase after them and possess them by pretending they belong to someone else.

Telepathically you were aware of the full nature of the male’s relationship with his mother. You chase him precisely because you were fairly certain you would not have him, for it was the search, again, that was important. It is a substitute for facing your own destiny. It is a counterfeit living pattern, and you are using it to avoid developing your full strength and stature as a personality.

You would not be happy with the male, and you intuitively realize this. The obsession to have him grows precisely in proportion to your inner realization that you do not want him, but only the excitement involved in searching for him. You must end the search and face the self.

You have a full stature as a personality that you are not reaching. There is a self into which you shall grow, a strong intuitive self in full control of its own destiny so far as is possible. This is the self that you cannot deny, and this should be the object of your search for now.