“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Telepathically you were aware of the full nature of the male’s relationship with his mother. You chase him precisely because you were fairly certain you would not have him, for it was the search, again, that was important. It is a substitute for facing your own destiny. It is a counterfeit living pattern, and you are using it to avoid developing your full strength and stature as a personality.

You would not be happy with the male, and you intuitively realize this. The obsession to have him grows precisely in proportion to your inner realization that you do not want him, but only the excitement involved in searching for him. You must end the search and face the self.

Before a break. You have not been facing yourself and you are trying to substitute another for the part of yourself that you will not face. You have inner stability, but you are in danger of losing inner stability whenever you try to project this upon someone else. The excitement involved in this chase is something like the excitement you feel speaking to your good students. In the one case it is the wholesome and joyful result of the expenditure of psychic energy. In the other case it is the counterfeit expression. It is a turning away from and not going toward.