“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The questioner is obviously the hunter. The questioner also enjoys the chase for the sake of a chase. It is the chase that is important to both personalities. The questioner deludes herself. The object of the chase is not the important point. The excitement involved in the chase is important, and the energy, the vital energy used is being directed away from its proper purpose.

You must know your own personality and develop your own abilities, and this should be your quest now. There is a strength of character, and indeed a rather heartless determination. These can be used to strengthen the framework and extend the limitations of your own personality. You are not developing your abilities, but using vital energies in pursuit of something that you do not basically want to attain.

You need the excitement vivid in the pursuit, but this excitement will be increased by far when your energy is used to perfect and develop your own personality. You are in effect putting the responsibility for your own development where it does not belong, and turning your destiny over to another person in a very real manner, in order to escape taking full responsibility for your own destiny.

Before a break. You have not been facing yourself and you are trying to substitute another for the part of yourself that you will not face. You have inner stability, but you are in danger of losing inner stability whenever you try to project this upon someone else. The excitement involved in this chase is something like the excitement you feel speaking to your good students. In the one case it is the wholesome and joyful result of the expenditure of psychic energy. In the other case it is the counterfeit expression. It is a turning away from and not going toward.

It is time for you to finish with childish games. They are draining your energy and they are keeping you from learning your own destiny. Now, if you have questions by all means ask them.

First of all, the teaching ability is a good one, but it is being hampered and not developed simply because you are using vital energy in this counterfeit manner. Your abilities as a teacher will not be fully developed until you realize the potential of your personality.