“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This material was given in two sessions of about 20 minutes each. We thought the session ended with the first 20-minute delivery, but after a break Jane returned as Seth for more material. The presence of witnesses encouraged her; strong voice effects began to show themselves, the best in many sessions and toward the end of the Pat’s delivery, Jane achieved a projection to the Boston classroom of Pat’s special class. In many ways Jane regards this session as one of the best ever. Toward the last part of the session her delivery was very strong and forceful; very fast and emphatic and impressive; her eyes were closed for the most part, and she was really out.

(Jane has her own notes on this session, and they may be included with these in these records. She took some little while to come out of the trance at the end, a fact attesting to the depth and effectiveness achieved. She achieved a legitimate projection to the classroom in Boston, and Seth deals with this to some extent in the next session. Jane believes she might have delivered much more evidential material had I asked questions; but I did not know whether to or not, fearing I might break continuity.

There is a strong and rather aggressive nature beneath the surface personality of the questioner, of which the questioner is frightened, to some extent therefore a divided self. The male is passive and of a submissive mind, and given to an obsession with overconsideration for security. He will always seek security, but he enjoys being the object of a chase of this nature.

The questioner is indeed on a pilgrimage to find her own personality. You cannot substitute some other personality, you see. It would work very well, but it does not work that way.

There are definite reasons why the questioner chose the particular personality for this quest. An attempt was made to find a suitable substitute, you see, and a particular group of circumstances then seized upon, in order to initiate the proceedings. The questioner is subconsciously aware of those abilities that should be developed in her own personality, and attempts to project these outward into someone else. Then you see you search for the someone else, neatly labeled, but the capabilities and personality developments must be pursued within the self. You cannot chase after them and possess them by pretending they belong to someone else.

You must know your own personality and develop your own abilities, and this should be your quest now. There is a strength of character, and indeed a rather heartless determination. These can be used to strengthen the framework and extend the limitations of your own personality. You are not developing your abilities, but using vital energies in pursuit of something that you do not basically want to attain.

You need the excitement vivid in the pursuit, but this excitement will be increased by far when your energy is used to perfect and develop your own personality. You are in effect putting the responsibility for your own development where it does not belong, and turning your destiny over to another person in a very real manner, in order to escape taking full responsibility for your own destiny.

You would not be happy with the male, and you intuitively realize this. The obsession to have him grows precisely in proportion to your inner realization that you do not want him, but only the excitement involved in searching for him. You must end the search and face the self.

Before a break. You have not been facing yourself and you are trying to substitute another for the part of yourself that you will not face. You have inner stability, but you are in danger of losing inner stability whenever you try to project this upon someone else. The excitement involved in this chase is something like the excitement you feel speaking to your good students. In the one case it is the wholesome and joyful result of the expenditure of psychic energy. In the other case it is the counterfeit expression. It is a turning away from and not going toward.

First of all, the teaching ability is a good one, but it is being hampered and not developed simply because you are using vital energy in this counterfeit manner. Your abilities as a teacher will not be fully developed until you realize the potential of your personality.

He will not be directly connected. There will be a very indirect connection here, but it is not significant. It is possible that the man will be a brother to someone you know now, or will know then.