“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There is a strong and rather aggressive nature beneath the surface personality of the questioner, of which the questioner is frightened, to some extent therefore a divided self. The male is passive and of a submissive mind, and given to an obsession with overconsideration for security. He will always seek security, but he enjoys being the object of a chase of this nature.

The questioner is obviously the hunter. The questioner also enjoys the chase for the sake of a chase. It is the chase that is important to both personalities. The questioner deludes herself. The object of the chase is not the important point. The excitement involved in the chase is important, and the energy, the vital energy used is being directed away from its proper purpose.

The proper purpose should be the development of the self, and the development of abilities, and it is to elude this responsibility that the chase was originated. The excitement of the chase is being substituted for the excitement that is required and demanded by the questioner, and rightly so because of the questioner’s psychological makeup.

The excitement however is counterfeit at present. The questioner hunts out an object, another personality, when she basically believes the personality is unattainable. The other personality is not sought for because of any inherent qualities of his own. He serves, instead, as a substitute in a quest that the questioner has not yet begun.

The questioner is indeed on a pilgrimage to find her own personality. You cannot substitute some other personality, you see. It would work very well, but it does not work that way.

There are definite reasons why the questioner chose the particular personality for this quest. An attempt was made to find a suitable substitute, you see, and a particular group of circumstances then seized upon, in order to initiate the proceedings. The questioner is subconsciously aware of those abilities that should be developed in her own personality, and attempts to project these outward into someone else. Then you see you search for the someone else, neatly labeled, but the capabilities and personality developments must be pursued within the self. You cannot chase after them and possess them by pretending they belong to someone else.

You must know your own personality and develop your own abilities, and this should be your quest now. There is a strength of character, and indeed a rather heartless determination. These can be used to strengthen the framework and extend the limitations of your own personality. You are not developing your abilities, but using vital energies in pursuit of something that you do not basically want to attain.

You need the excitement vivid in the pursuit, but this excitement will be increased by far when your energy is used to perfect and develop your own personality. You are in effect putting the responsibility for your own development where it does not belong, and turning your destiny over to another person in a very real manner, in order to escape taking full responsibility for your own destiny.

You fear the aggressive portions of your own personality, and instead of allowing these portions to work for you, you are sending them out on a counterfeit journey after an object, another person, with whom you would not be happy, and for whom you have little basic respect.

Telepathically you were aware of the full nature of the male’s relationship with his mother. You chase him precisely because you were fairly certain you would not have him, for it was the search, again, that was important. It is a substitute for facing your own destiny. It is a counterfeit living pattern, and you are using it to avoid developing your full strength and stature as a personality.

You have a full stature as a personality that you are not reaching. There is a self into which you shall grow, a strong intuitive self in full control of its own destiny so far as is possible. This is the self that you cannot deny, and this should be the object of your search for now.

First of all, the teaching ability is a good one, but it is being hampered and not developed simply because you are using vital energy in this counterfeit manner. Your abilities as a teacher will not be fully developed until you realize the potential of your personality.

You have an ability to develop awareness in young people…and to bring them to a point of enthusiasm, to spark their…no mean talent…

Again, the goal should be a development into the best possible self. There will be areas of contention with the young man with whom you are now involved.

No permanent part, unless drastic changes occur in both of your personalities, and this does not seem possible now. There is a psychic connection here, however, and the possibility much stronger in the past. Your ambitions should stand in the way of such a development, and the other personality realizes this.