“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now you can afford the token recognition. You cannot afford to deny them token recognition. They are not by any means overdemanding elements in either of your personalities. Your weekend encounters have been an improvement here. The spirit behind the indulgence is important.

He is willing to compromise by taking various jobs, but here there are other influences also. His grandfather strongly influenced him, and to the grandfather only a man who worked for himself was independent. Only in his last ill year did he work for others. He had his own businesses, but he barely scraped by with them you see.

You can understand then some of the conflict here. That is one of the reasons that he seeks what you call offbeat positions, but he has made progress in this line, and should continue to do so. At one time only a freelance selling position, you see, would have been an acceptable compromise.

Ruburt correctly interpreted the evening symptoms that sometimes occur. There is some identification with the mother here, based on highly falsified data; if he becomes the mother, then the mother cannot hurt him. And in all such identifications, there is the feeling that by becoming that which one fears, there is safety. This is obviously wrong and dangerous.

There is no deeply symbolic meaning here, the stairs having simply become a transitional point between the outside and the inside. Although going down is somewhat significant, representing to the ego the fear of going down into the self.