“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

If you compare the whole self with an ocean, then the topmost wave at any given time would represent the ego. It is not by or of itself a separate thing, but part of the whole, forever changing, to return to the whole and be tumbled under and emerge again in new form.

When it attempts to hold the upper position indefinitely, there is frozen motion and built-up pressures, but there will be the inevitable tumbling under. For the tumbling under is the motion that forms the ego itself, and without it the ego would be meaningless.

You see, for years Ruburt hid himself from his mother, and as stated earlier he felt that in giving her his book he had opened himself to her. For years he would not wear anything that had been close to her. Then he shoved this feeling away and would not face it.

Even then, however, the subconscious would not be forced too far, and a good deal of the time the sweaters sat in his drawer. They were not his style, they were his mother’s style and in wearing them he felt further alarm that he was being cast in her world, so to speak.

(“The only one would be to name the object as best you can.”)

(This is a stronger connection than it would seem, for Tom is a friend of ours who visits us fairly often. He also paints himself. Other references to Tom crop up in the data also.

(I pulled it out to view. It was a piece two yards long, and the proprietor of the Art Shop sold it to me for half price; it was just what I had in mind for an experiment, as will be seen. I was very pleasantly surprised to find this canvas there, for I had thought I would have to order it from New York City.

(The tack holes running along one edge of the object resulted from the canvas first being tacked to a sheet of board, then wet so that pre-shrinking would take place before the gluing process.

(“A design on rectangle.” The object is rectangular; it bears no design, but being canvas is meant to ultimately. A larger interpretation would be that I applied the linen canvas to large rectangular pieces of Masonite, with the idea of painting on these. I made no square panels for instance, not caring for this proportion.

(Question: The only one would be to name the object as best you can. “Rectangular, having it seems some connection with metal or an automobile. Some dates and numbers, like an application.” Again, apparently a reference to Tom and his car; and through this to the Art Shop, the linen canvas, etc.