“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now to some extant Ruburt’s ego wanted to stay where it was also: hence, comparatively speaking, the frozen motion.

It attempted to stop other portions of the personality from entering into the ego framework. This ego that so behaved was then simply a group of particular qualities belonging to Ruburt, that were given control for a while to meet particular circumstances, and then stubbornly refused to return to the whole personality.

The knees, incidentally, I can help him here: in Saint Vincent’s punishment took the form of having the child kneel straight upward, and doing so Ruburt’s knees often became sore. The knee symptoms were a later development in this present series of symptoms, his way of punishing himself for his previous lack of understanding. This knowledge should greatly relieve the symptoms.

Previous ego patterns can still operate under various circumstances. Ruburt was often a male, and he sometimes attempts to manhandle the feminine aspects of his present personality, to inflict upon it literally qualities that go against its grain. Force, logic over intuition, for example, or intellect over psychic awareness. The psychic abilities in his case are, among other things, aided by that balance of characteristics, and these should not be tampered with.

You see, for years Ruburt hid himself from his mother, and as stated earlier he felt that in giving her his book he had opened himself to her. For years he would not wear anything that had been close to her. Then he shoved this feeling away and would not face it.

One note here: Ruburt’s disinclination to walk outside is another instance of mother identification