“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The situations had changed but the ego framework had grown rigid, rigid enough so that it could in a large degree dominate certain normally subconscious processes, bringing forth the physical symptoms. Now there is always an imprinting process within the personality, belonging to past experience. A previous inclination to gluttony had once led him to some slight gout, and in the present case there was a swelling of the feet.

Give us a moment here. (Pause.) To some extent the symptoms did represent caution. He did not want to move until he was sure of his direction once more. It was the stubborn ego in this case that prevented him from seeing clearly the direction which had been given by other portions of the self.

The knees, incidentally, I can help him here: in Saint Vincent’s punishment took the form of having the child kneel straight upward, and doing so Ruburt’s knees often became sore. The knee symptoms were a later development in this present series of symptoms, his way of punishing himself for his previous lack of understanding. This knowledge should greatly relieve the symptoms.

Egotistically he forced other aspects of his personality to accept what they feared. In times of high vitality the effects were minor. After the book’s publication however the effects multiplied. A message to this effect was given him in a dream, and he ignored it.

Only the last one was simple. His letters of thanks protested too much. He wore the sweater night and day in a frenzied attempt to prove that it I had no harmful effects upon him. From the subconscious standpoint this was simply too much.

At various times when working he went without a bra because his shoulders bothered him, and he wore one of his mother’s sweaters. Now his mother never wore a bra, you see. The thin shoulders he imagines he has are a part of mother identification.

(“A window, or indication of an open viewpoint, or station from which activities may be viewed. A high window or exalted viewpoint.” This is excellent data, and refers again to the second-story workroom above the Art Shop. From this room a large plate glass window looks down on West Water Street, and Tom is in the habit of watching the busy activities on the main street below. He has often waved to Jane and me as we walked past. Jane always waves to him whenever she walks down Water Street, which is at least three times a week.