“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This trick was this: it pretended to accept the psychic nature as part of itself and began a campaign ostensibly aimed at living up to its image, of adapting it. But it purposefully distorted the idea image so grotesquely that it knew it could not be maintained. It would get its own way by pretending to give in. Psychics were saintly, dignified, quiet, restrained. They were, it said, everything that Ruburt was not. Therefore, Ruburt must be changed. It knew the change would be disastrous and in fact, impossible.

His ego however is also very strong. His mother taught him to be extremely fearful of his subconscious, and the rigid ego became a protection from it and her. As he grew older he thought of the ego as a balancing agent against an inner spontaneous self that always, it seemed, got him into trouble. Now I would like to continue here, but I imagine your hands are tired.

Usually this occurred when alcohol relaxed the ego, and the results would then make the ego tighten its control. When Ruburt becomes leery or afraid to allow himself the normal amount of social drinking, this is a symptom, telling you that the subconscious is being too tightly held. The ego fears any weakening, for it feels the pressure of the subconscious demand for expression. You may now take your break. I will try to finish this, this evening, for it will be invaluable.

There is very little danger that Ruburt’s ego would be suppressed. Even in psychic work, though generally speaking, of course, the connotations frighten the ego. The danger is that the subconscious be suppressed, and this is the only real time that Ruburt runs into difficulty.

Now: A strong part of the ego identity is based upon the continuity of creative achievement, which springs from the subconscious. If this were severely tampered with, the ego itself would suffer. Now give us a moment on the clairvoyant question. If the suggestion is given daily as I told you, there will be no great difficulty in any case. There is at present no outstanding clairvoyant data that is affecting his symptoms or causing any new symptoms, outside of those given.

For several reasons I would prefer to discuss the dream at our next session. Part of it was clairvoyant however, and part was highly distorted. Do you have any more questions?

I would suggest that for any trip to New York you do not stay entirely at Ruburt’s aunt’s, you see, though this in many ways may be convenient. And now, good evening.