“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Some symptoms are indeed caused by telepathic knowledge. He reacts to it as he reacts to other information. Personal associations are generated, and so forth. The affair with Muriel was known to him, though again he is not consciously convinced. (Muriel is the daughter of Marian and Jimmy.)

Now, here is a certain connection that he well knows. Marian Spaziani has some, though slight, trouble with arthritis and it was her daughter who became ill mentally. Marian did not approve of her daughter’s companions. And Ruburt’s mother did not approve of his.

Muriel left college without completing it and in disfavor, and so did Ruburt. The similarities alone made it easy for Ruburt to be sensitized on Muriel’s behalf and to clairvoyantly observe the illness. All of this added to the previous negative associations, and reinforced the existing symptoms, except that the identification was with the mother. Ruburt must understand that his abilities do include such clairvoyantly received data. The suggestion above should be given daily and as a matter of course.

He will automatically react to such information whether or not he consciously admits that he receives it. Ignorance is no excuse, for I have told him. The whole psychic development can and should, and was meant, to provide exactly what was needed, and its timing was no accident.

It provides for the deepest spontaneous expression of the subconscious, gives the ego a directive and sense of purpose, and develops the overall abilities of the personality, which in the past were completely denied, for lack of training and out of fear. The poetry was always a part of the psychic nature.

This trick was this: it pretended to accept the psychic nature as part of itself and began a campaign ostensibly aimed at living up to its image, of adapting it. But it purposefully distorted the idea image so grotesquely that it knew it could not be maintained. It would get its own way by pretending to give in. Psychics were saintly, dignified, quiet, restrained. They were, it said, everything that Ruburt was not. Therefore, Ruburt must be changed. It knew the change would be disastrous and in fact, impossible.

To some extent this was indeed a spiteful reaction, but do not forget it had been a good protector in the past, developed during Ruburt’s years with his mother into a strong armor. It called itself the writer, if it had any name. The writer protected Ruburt against frightening experiences. This experience frightened it and it reacted.

In Ruburt’s years with Zeh, there was severe splitting of the personality. It is not a new thing with him to push aside the subconscious at all. In all cases when he does, an explosion of one kind occurs. His subconscious intuitive self, you see, is extremely vital, alive, and unusually insistent for expression, even for the subconscious which is known for this.

(“No. Go ahead.” Walter Zeh was Jane’s first husband.)

Then, the strong conflict between the ego and subconscious was the result of home environment. He allowed himself no spontaneous expression at home with his mother. This denied, his normal spontaneity exploded when it was allowed opportunity, sometimes in unfortunate circumstances. In panic, the ego then tripled its defenses. He was not capable of loving Zeh or anyone, later. They both knew this and counted upon it. With Zeh, again, Ruburt denied the spontaneous self in normal daily interaction with him; with Zeh. And this denied spontaneous self exploded when and where it could.

(9:43. Jane was aware of what she was saying; she called it a devastating psychological analysis and intuitively felt that is was correct.

The hand development came last when the personality realized that the problems were not being solved, and that symbolically, his hands were tied. He was left in a dilemma. Having decided not to run, yet finding he was not getting anywhere either. The answer, symbolically, is that movement can be toward, and not away from.

The conflict between the ego and subconscious, as given, was symbolically expressed in the tying of the hand symptoms. He was tied in knots, hence the swollen joints. There is a line from a poem of his, written years ago, in a period of stress, “If I can’t move one finger, how can the whole soul rise?" from his dance floor poem.

Understanding of these conflicts will go a long way to ease the symptoms. The stiff neck, when it occurs—the neck quite literally expresses the rigidity of attitude. It is easier for him to withdraw than it appears. In this case, however, the subconscious recognized the danger and symbolically expressed through the organism, the ego’s intent. The symptoms therefore were therapeutic in nature, in that their purpose was the solving of the dilemma.

He reacts favorably to the color green as I told him. It has a healing quality for him. The cod-liver oil should not be renewed, although he was told it is a protection against arthritis; the word itself operates with each dose in a negative way.

For several reasons I would prefer to discuss the dream at our next session. Part of it was clairvoyant however, and part was highly distorted. Do you have any more questions?