“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, there is a point, quite important, that Ruburt will not consciously as yet accept, and that is the influence of telepathic and clairvoyant data. This does affect the personality.

Now, here is a certain connection that he well knows. Marian Spaziani has some, though slight, trouble with arthritis and it was her daughter who became ill mentally. Marian did not approve of her daughter’s companions. And Ruburt’s mother did not approve of his.

Muriel left college without completing it and in disfavor, and so did Ruburt. The similarities alone made it easy for Ruburt to be sensitized on Muriel’s behalf and to clairvoyantly observe the illness. All of this added to the previous negative associations, and reinforced the existing symptoms, except that the identification was with the mother. Ruburt must understand that his abilities do include such clairvoyantly received data. The suggestion above should be given daily and as a matter of course.

This trick was this: it pretended to accept the psychic nature as part of itself and began a campaign ostensibly aimed at living up to its image, of adapting it. But it purposefully distorted the idea image so grotesquely that it knew it could not be maintained. It would get its own way by pretending to give in. Psychics were saintly, dignified, quiet, restrained. They were, it said, everything that Ruburt was not. Therefore, Ruburt must be changed. It knew the change would be disastrous and in fact, impossible.

To some extent this was indeed a spiteful reaction, but do not forget it had been a good protector in the past, developed during Ruburt’s years with his mother into a strong armor. It called itself the writer, if it had any name. The writer protected Ruburt against frightening experiences. This experience frightened it and it reacted.

In Ruburt’s years with Zeh, there was severe splitting of the personality. It is not a new thing with him to push aside the subconscious at all. In all cases when he does, an explosion of one kind occurs. His subconscious intuitive self, you see, is extremely vital, alive, and unusually insistent for expression, even for the subconscious which is known for this.

Then, the strong conflict between the ego and subconscious was the result of home environment. He allowed himself no spontaneous expression at home with his mother. This denied, his normal spontaneity exploded when it was allowed opportunity, sometimes in unfortunate circumstances. In panic, the ego then tripled its defenses. He was not capable of loving Zeh or anyone, later. They both knew this and counted upon it. With Zeh, again, Ruburt denied the spontaneous self in normal daily interaction with him; with Zeh. And this denied spontaneous self exploded when and where it could.

Usually this occurred when alcohol relaxed the ego, and the results would then make the ego tighten its control. When Ruburt becomes leery or afraid to allow himself the normal amount of social drinking, this is a symptom, telling you that the subconscious is being too tightly held. The ego fears any weakening, for it feels the pressure of the subconscious demand for expression. You may now take your break. I will try to finish this, this evening, for it will be invaluable.

Now give us a moment. (Pause.) The psychic work offers the personality a perfect method for development and unification. The hands and feet are part of the mother identification and are also important in another connection. Ruburt blames himself for running from difficulties in the past. This way he cannot run, you see, symbolically. He is forcing himself to face his difficulties, but thus far his hands are tied, you see.

Movement can be freely in new directions, and movement does not necessarily imply a running away from. Ruburt, you cannot deny motion simply because motion can sometimes be used to flee from problems. You must allow yourself free motion.

There is very little danger that Ruburt’s ego would be suppressed. Even in psychic work, though generally speaking, of course, the connotations frighten the ego. The danger is that the subconscious be suppressed, and this is the only real time that Ruburt runs into difficulty.

There is always some clairvoyant material to which he is reacting, generally speaking, even as you do. There is a man it seems, somehow three times removed, but not related with any symptoms on Ruburt’s part. Proper suggestions should indeed be given before bed, along with the request for further therapeutic dreams and dreams that will give insight.

You see, as Ruburt allows himself spontaneity, again, the mother identification will automatically vanish, and with it the symptoms it causes. My best wishes to you both and I shall look in on you now and then. The constructive suggestions before bed are particularly important, and the request for therapeutic dreams, as these automatically relieve the morning symptoms, and further dissipate the lingering mother identification.

I would suggest that for any trip to New York you do not stay entirely at Ruburt’s aunt’s, you see, though this in many ways may be convenient. And now, good evening.