“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, there is a point, quite important, that Ruburt will not consciously as yet accept, and that is the influence of telepathic and clairvoyant data. This does affect the personality.

Now, here is a certain connection that he well knows. Marian Spaziani has some, though slight, trouble with arthritis and it was her daughter who became ill mentally. Marian did not approve of her daughter’s companions. And Ruburt’s mother did not approve of his.

His ego however is also very strong. His mother taught him to be extremely fearful of his subconscious, and the rigid ego became a protection from it and her. As he grew older he thought of the ego as a balancing agent against an inner spontaneous self that always, it seemed, got him into trouble. Now I would like to continue here, but I imagine your hands are tired.

Usually this occurred when alcohol relaxed the ego, and the results would then make the ego tighten its control. When Ruburt becomes leery or afraid to allow himself the normal amount of social drinking, this is a symptom, telling you that the subconscious is being too tightly held. The ego fears any weakening, for it feels the pressure of the subconscious demand for expression. You may now take your break. I will try to finish this, this evening, for it will be invaluable.

Now give us a moment. (Pause.) The psychic work offers the personality a perfect method for development and unification. The hands and feet are part of the mother identification and are also important in another connection. Ruburt blames himself for running from difficulties in the past. This way he cannot run, you see, symbolically. He is forcing himself to face his difficulties, but thus far his hands are tied, you see.

Now: A strong part of the ego identity is based upon the continuity of creative achievement, which springs from the subconscious. If this were severely tampered with, the ego itself would suffer. Now give us a moment on the clairvoyant question. If the suggestion is given daily as I told you, there will be no great difficulty in any case. There is at present no outstanding clairvoyant data that is affecting his symptoms or causing any new symptoms, outside of those given.

Your partyings and excursions elsewhere in particular are beneficial now. I suggest possibly that you have an evening out during the weekend. The early morning symptoms in general mimic his mother’s situation.

You see, as Ruburt allows himself spontaneity, again, the mother identification will automatically vanish, and with it the symptoms it causes. My best wishes to you both and I shall look in on you now and then. The constructive suggestions before bed are particularly important, and the request for therapeutic dreams, as these automatically relieve the morning symptoms, and further dissipate the lingering mother identification.

The small lamp in the bedroom, incidentally, added to his disinclination to sleep there. The pink nightgown should be lain away with the sweaters for now. In fact it should probably be disposed of, because of the bedroom connotation. (Pause.)

I would suggest that for any trip to New York you do not stay entirely at Ruburt’s aunt’s, you see, though this in many ways may be convenient. And now, good evening.