“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, here is a certain connection that he well knows. Marian Spaziani has some, though slight, trouble with arthritis and it was her daughter who became ill mentally. Marian did not approve of her daughter’s companions. And Ruburt’s mother did not approve of his.

Muriel left college without completing it and in disfavor, and so did Ruburt. The similarities alone made it easy for Ruburt to be sensitized on Muriel’s behalf and to clairvoyantly observe the illness. All of this added to the previous negative associations, and reinforced the existing symptoms, except that the identification was with the mother. Ruburt must understand that his abilities do include such clairvoyantly received data. The suggestion above should be given daily and as a matter of course.

In his case, the two go together and serve each other. The poetic creation, itself art, also serves to free the personal subconscious and to transform personal material into art. The subconscious is thus uncluttered because of the poetic expression, and this helps to make the psychic work possible.

To some extent this was indeed a spiteful reaction, but do not forget it had been a good protector in the past, developed during Ruburt’s years with his mother into a strong armor. It called itself the writer, if it had any name. The writer protected Ruburt against frightening experiences. This experience frightened it and it reacted.

In Ruburt’s years with Zeh, there was severe splitting of the personality. It is not a new thing with him to push aside the subconscious at all. In all cases when he does, an explosion of one kind occurs. His subconscious intuitive self, you see, is extremely vital, alive, and unusually insistent for expression, even for the subconscious which is known for this.

His ego however is also very strong. His mother taught him to be extremely fearful of his subconscious, and the rigid ego became a protection from it and her. As he grew older he thought of the ego as a balancing agent against an inner spontaneous self that always, it seemed, got him into trouble. Now I would like to continue here, but I imagine your hands are tired.

Then, the strong conflict between the ego and subconscious was the result of home environment. He allowed himself no spontaneous expression at home with his mother. This denied, his normal spontaneity exploded when it was allowed opportunity, sometimes in unfortunate circumstances. In panic, the ego then tripled its defenses. He was not capable of loving Zeh or anyone, later. They both knew this and counted upon it. With Zeh, again, Ruburt denied the spontaneous self in normal daily interaction with him; with Zeh. And this denied spontaneous self exploded when and where it could.

Now give us a moment. (Pause.) The psychic work offers the personality a perfect method for development and unification. The hands and feet are part of the mother identification and are also important in another connection. Ruburt blames himself for running from difficulties in the past. This way he cannot run, you see, symbolically. He is forcing himself to face his difficulties, but thus far his hands are tied, you see.

The hand development came last when the personality realized that the problems were not being solved, and that symbolically, his hands were tied. He was left in a dilemma. Having decided not to run, yet finding he was not getting anywhere either. The answer, symbolically, is that movement can be toward, and not away from.

The conflict between the ego and subconscious, as given, was symbolically expressed in the tying of the hand symptoms. He was tied in knots, hence the swollen joints. There is a line from a poem of his, written years ago, in a period of stress, “If I can’t move one finger, how can the whole soul rise?" from his dance floor poem.

Now: A strong part of the ego identity is based upon the continuity of creative achievement, which springs from the subconscious. If this were severely tampered with, the ego itself would suffer. Now give us a moment on the clairvoyant question. If the suggestion is given daily as I told you, there will be no great difficulty in any case. There is at present no outstanding clairvoyant data that is affecting his symptoms or causing any new symptoms, outside of those given.

Your partyings and excursions elsewhere in particular are beneficial now. I suggest possibly that you have an evening out during the weekend. The early morning symptoms in general mimic his mother’s situation.

The small lamp in the bedroom, incidentally, added to his disinclination to sleep there. The pink nightgown should be lain away with the sweaters for now. In fact it should probably be disposed of, because of the bedroom connotation. (Pause.)