“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It provides for the deepest spontaneous expression of the subconscious, gives the ego a directive and sense of purpose, and develops the overall abilities of the personality, which in the past were completely denied, for lack of training and out of fear. The poetry was always a part of the psychic nature.

The psychic experiences are then used as poetic subjects, and this cycle of creativity is always enriched as the whole personality continually develops itself and grows. Any undue tampering disrupts this function. The personality could not approach its own promise until the poetic nature led to the psychic development. When this occurred, some personality adjustments were required. The ego felt threatened in direct proportion to the strength of the newly felt abilities, and performed a huge trick.

His ego however is also very strong. His mother taught him to be extremely fearful of his subconscious, and the rigid ego became a protection from it and her. As he grew older he thought of the ego as a balancing agent against an inner spontaneous self that always, it seemed, got him into trouble. Now I would like to continue here, but I imagine your hands are tired.

Then, the strong conflict between the ego and subconscious was the result of home environment. He allowed himself no spontaneous expression at home with his mother. This denied, his normal spontaneity exploded when it was allowed opportunity, sometimes in unfortunate circumstances. In panic, the ego then tripled its defenses. He was not capable of loving Zeh or anyone, later. They both knew this and counted upon it. With Zeh, again, Ruburt denied the spontaneous self in normal daily interaction with him; with Zeh. And this denied spontaneous self exploded when and where it could.

Usually this occurred when alcohol relaxed the ego, and the results would then make the ego tighten its control. When Ruburt becomes leery or afraid to allow himself the normal amount of social drinking, this is a symptom, telling you that the subconscious is being too tightly held. The ego fears any weakening, for it feels the pressure of the subconscious demand for expression. You may now take your break. I will try to finish this, this evening, for it will be invaluable.

The conflict between the ego and subconscious, as given, was symbolically expressed in the tying of the hand symptoms. He was tied in knots, hence the swollen joints. There is a line from a poem of his, written years ago, in a period of stress, “If I can’t move one finger, how can the whole soul rise?" from his dance floor poem.

Understanding of these conflicts will go a long way to ease the symptoms. The stiff neck, when it occurs—the neck quite literally expresses the rigidity of attitude. It is easier for him to withdraw than it appears. In this case, however, the subconscious recognized the danger and symbolically expressed through the organism, the ego’s intent. The symptoms therefore were therapeutic in nature, in that their purpose was the solving of the dilemma.

There is very little danger that Ruburt’s ego would be suppressed. Even in psychic work, though generally speaking, of course, the connotations frighten the ego. The danger is that the subconscious be suppressed, and this is the only real time that Ruburt runs into difficulty.

Now: A strong part of the ego identity is based upon the continuity of creative achievement, which springs from the subconscious. If this were severely tampered with, the ego itself would suffer. Now give us a moment on the clairvoyant question. If the suggestion is given daily as I told you, there will be no great difficulty in any case. There is at present no outstanding clairvoyant data that is affecting his symptoms or causing any new symptoms, outside of those given.