“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This trick was this: it pretended to accept the psychic nature as part of itself and began a campaign ostensibly aimed at living up to its image, of adapting it. But it purposefully distorted the idea image so grotesquely that it knew it could not be maintained. It would get its own way by pretending to give in. Psychics were saintly, dignified, quiet, restrained. They were, it said, everything that Ruburt was not. Therefore, Ruburt must be changed. It knew the change would be disastrous and in fact, impossible.

To some extent this was indeed a spiteful reaction, but do not forget it had been a good protector in the past, developed during Ruburt’s years with his mother into a strong armor. It called itself the writer, if it had any name. The writer protected Ruburt against frightening experiences. This experience frightened it and it reacted.

His ego however is also very strong. His mother taught him to be extremely fearful of his subconscious, and the rigid ego became a protection from it and her. As he grew older he thought of the ego as a balancing agent against an inner spontaneous self that always, it seemed, got him into trouble. Now I would like to continue here, but I imagine your hands are tired.

Now give us a moment. (Pause.) The psychic work offers the personality a perfect method for development and unification. The hands and feet are part of the mother identification and are also important in another connection. Ruburt blames himself for running from difficulties in the past. This way he cannot run, you see, symbolically. He is forcing himself to face his difficulties, but thus far his hands are tied, you see.

There is always some clairvoyant material to which he is reacting, generally speaking, even as you do. There is a man it seems, somehow three times removed, but not related with any symptoms on Ruburt’s part. Proper suggestions should indeed be given before bed, along with the request for further therapeutic dreams and dreams that will give insight.