“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He has indeed learned, the hard way, lessons that he had to learn if he were to further develop. And yet these lessons all in all were self-given, and he is actually lucky, for they could have been far more difficult and the fruits of stubbornness could have been more bitter.

He developed this objective manner originally years ago because he feared he could not control his own spontaneity. It grew, however, into too strong an armor, and threatened to suffocate him. He will no longer block material now in the sessions, and therefore I will have a freer voice to counsel you when it may be needed.

The emergence of these psychic abilities was indeed resented by his ego, and initiated a necessary overhaul of personality, against which it protested. Ruburt will be more his natural and uninhibited intuitional self now. The ego had simply overgrown its bounds.

I will, Joseph, discuss some past-life material here, when I finish with this. (Long pause.) A variety of events led up to the sudden improvement. The letter to Miss Healy was important here; but more than this, intuitionally Ruburt became aware of insights that were necessary if the symptoms were to vanish.

The resoluteness can now be used in a different manner. Ruburt can use it to insure his intuitional psychic and spiritual development.

You see during Ruburt’s past period of adjustment, our sessions were not cut off. I was able to keep those channels open. You are approaching some excellent periods in your lives, periods that would not have been possible had Ruburt not fully accepted, as he now has, the emergence of his abilities and his responsibility to develop them.

A comparable change occurred in your personality, Joseph, after the sessions began. It was less difficult, mainly since you had been ill earlier, you see, and already forced to know the weight of the body when the ego fights the intuitional self.

Now. Ruburt had several dreams concerning Miss Price, also a therapeutic dream last evening that he did not remember. During this period he did not remember his dreams because he purposely closed subconscious channels.

There was a slight stroke on the left side several months ago with Miss Price, and Ruburt knew of this in a dream. There was, I believe, a hospital stay, though whether this was connected with the stroke I do not know.

The door, the door from which she emerged after sending the telegram. The money having to do with concern over Blanche’s family, and how they would handle Blanche’s estate. The Spencer is a future development. The black buttons on Blanche’s death—the dress she wore. The grave is obvious. Other impressions also apply to the same circumstances—the city, Baltimore. Ruburt was so certain not to block anything that he did not let me focus clearly enough, but that is all right for now. The mail had to do with his letter. That will do for explanation, I believe.