“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The regularly scheduled session for Monday, January 23, was not held. Instead Jane and I worked with the pendulum and achieved good results.)

When he was in kindergarten his mother was just becoming ill. Now, dealing with small children, this simply was added to the fuel. He can understand now however that this connection can be broken. He is himself and no one else. He is not his mother. They are worlds apart, the two personalities.

He did feel that you had withdrawn from him as far as his writing was concerned, and he has a need for warm daily affection, which he felt you had also withdrawn, for varying periods, and that you did not care that he was feeling poorly. Of course he would not consciously admit these feelings, considering such sentiments were unbecoming on his part. Your help with the pendulum sessions therefore greatly increases their effectiveness. He felt closed off, yet did not consciously think his feelings justified. The feelings existed, however.

A psychic, he thought, should be calm, untouched by physical events, highly disciplined, rather than spontaneous, such as he was, and sensitive to inner moods, which he was. He attempted to make himself over and in a nearly disastrous fashion. For to his subconscious, such a personality pattern represented immobility, and this was reflected in the physical symptoms.

Now discipline was somewhat overstressed from the beginning, with the psychic work. This was natural, largely. In his adolescence he was told by many to slow down, to use discipline, and the old adages returned.

As a side issue here, he did not feel that dancing was seeming for a psychic, you see.