“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Of course some restraint is necessary, but he has been leaning toward too much restraint in this respect, trying to be what he is not. His personality pattern is not quiet, nor aloof, but given to spontaneous inner motion that maintains its own individualistic balance. He has attempted to tamper with it. Part of this is caused by a misconception, and it is because of this misconception that he found it difficult to see himself as a so-called psychic.

A psychic, he thought, should be calm, untouched by physical events, highly disciplined, rather than spontaneous, such as he was, and sensitive to inner moods, which he was. He attempted to make himself over and in a nearly disastrous fashion. For to his subconscious, such a personality pattern represented immobility, and this was reflected in the physical symptoms.

He has a natural inner discipline which can be counted upon when he leaves it alone. The results of these feelings have been a loss of spontaneity in psychic matters and in physical ones, from which he is only now recovering.

He has blocked me several times when the cat lover and Jesuit were here, and the circumstances were good for a spontaneous session, particularly good, in fact. I had something to say each time and those moments are gone. He used the physical ailments as excuses to himself. The physical ailments were meant as checks from the beginning. Without spontaneity, he does not operate effectively or well. He has read too, too much along certain lines, and has tried too hard on a conscious level.

Now, if you err, it is far less dangerous to err on the side of spontaneity, given your personalities, than it is to use too much restraint. Too much restraint could eventually make the abilities inoperable. Too much spontaneity at worst could only cause some embarrassing moments. I am speaking of your personal cases only. The ability grows as it is used. This cannot be stressed too highly.

And in using, it will build up innate systems of checks and balances that will be natural for your own personalities, and effective. Not to use the ability in the face of sudden or spontaneous impressions can, under certain conditions, impede your progress. This applies to you both.

My best wishes to you both, and to our once again spontaneous Ruburt, a fond good evening.