“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Give us a moment. There is no need for him to punish himself now either, because he did not take full advantage of his psychic opportunities. He can more than make up for this from now on. There is one connection that should be mentioned and it can be quickly dispensed with when brought into the light. It is secondary but has had some effects.

Of course some restraint is necessary, but he has been leaning toward too much restraint in this respect, trying to be what he is not. His personality pattern is not quiet, nor aloof, but given to spontaneous inner motion that maintains its own individualistic balance. He has attempted to tamper with it. Part of this is caused by a misconception, and it is because of this misconception that he found it difficult to see himself as a so-called psychic.

A psychic, he thought, should be calm, untouched by physical events, highly disciplined, rather than spontaneous, such as he was, and sensitive to inner moods, which he was. He attempted to make himself over and in a nearly disastrous fashion. For to his subconscious, such a personality pattern represented immobility, and this was reflected in the physical symptoms.

Now discipline was somewhat overstressed from the beginning, with the psychic work. This was natural, largely. In his adolescence he was told by many to slow down, to use discipline, and the old adages returned.

He has a natural inner discipline which can be counted upon when he leaves it alone. The results of these feelings have been a loss of spontaneity in psychic matters and in physical ones, from which he is only now recovering.

He compares himself unfavorably with what seem to him to be more spiritual psychics. They follow their own way. He must follow his own way. And this is the meaning of spirituality.

Ruburt is himself and this self is a writer and this self has strong psychic abilities. These are all part of the self. It is dangerous to attempt to make the self into what it is not.

As a side issue here, he did not feel that dancing was seeming for a psychic, you see.