“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Of course some restraint is necessary, but he has been leaning toward too much restraint in this respect, trying to be what he is not. His personality pattern is not quiet, nor aloof, but given to spontaneous inner motion that maintains its own individualistic balance. He has attempted to tamper with it. Part of this is caused by a misconception, and it is because of this misconception that he found it difficult to see himself as a so-called psychic.

A psychic, he thought, should be calm, untouched by physical events, highly disciplined, rather than spontaneous, such as he was, and sensitive to inner moods, which he was. He attempted to make himself over and in a nearly disastrous fashion. For to his subconscious, such a personality pattern represented immobility, and this was reflected in the physical symptoms.

He has a natural inner discipline which can be counted upon when he leaves it alone. The results of these feelings have been a loss of spontaneity in psychic matters and in physical ones, from which he is only now recovering.