“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. The yoga exercises are of great benefit. They aid in keeping the channels open between the conscious and subconscious. They help in ridding the personality of harmful influences, and in generating new energy. Ruburt should continue them by all means. He has a habit of ignoring his subconscious, trying to reach other centers, not by going through the subconscious but by attempting to bypass it completely.

Give us a moment. There is no need for him to punish himself now either, because he did not take full advantage of his psychic opportunities. He can more than make up for this from now on. There is one connection that should be mentioned and it can be quickly dispensed with when brought into the light. It is secondary but has had some effects.

When he was in kindergarten his mother was just becoming ill. Now, dealing with small children, this simply was added to the fuel. He can understand now however that this connection can be broken. He is himself and no one else. He is not his mother. They are worlds apart, the two personalities.

He did feel that you had withdrawn from him as far as his writing was concerned, and he has a need for warm daily affection, which he felt you had also withdrawn, for varying periods, and that you did not care that he was feeling poorly. Of course he would not consciously admit these feelings, considering such sentiments were unbecoming on his part. Your help with the pendulum sessions therefore greatly increases their effectiveness. He felt closed off, yet did not consciously think his feelings justified. The feelings existed, however.

He is by nature highly intuitive and should give his moods some freedom. When he attempts to deny or block what he considers unsuitable moods, outlets are denied them and the next natural cycle, the rising up of high spirits, does not come.

Of course some restraint is necessary, but he has been leaning toward too much restraint in this respect, trying to be what he is not. His personality pattern is not quiet, nor aloof, but given to spontaneous inner motion that maintains its own individualistic balance. He has attempted to tamper with it. Part of this is caused by a misconception, and it is because of this misconception that he found it difficult to see himself as a so-called psychic.

A psychic, he thought, should be calm, untouched by physical events, highly disciplined, rather than spontaneous, such as he was, and sensitive to inner moods, which he was. He attempted to make himself over and in a nearly disastrous fashion. For to his subconscious, such a personality pattern represented immobility, and this was reflected in the physical symptoms.

These were meant as checks against impulsive or intuitive behavior. He must then behave, he thought, in a measured, reasoned, quiet, calm and disciplined way: and to see that he did, he slowed down the motions the body could make. Now, this is the heart of the matter, and he would not let me give it earlier. He should, and indeed, must, be himself. Those qualities of his of which he became suspicious are those that made our sessions and his development possible.

Now discipline was somewhat overstressed from the beginning, with the psychic work. This was natural, largely. In his adolescence he was told by many to slow down, to use discipline, and the old adages returned.

He has a natural inner discipline which can be counted upon when he leaves it alone. The results of these feelings have been a loss of spontaneity in psychic matters and in physical ones, from which he is only now recovering.

He has blocked me several times when the cat lover and Jesuit were here, and the circumstances were good for a spontaneous session, particularly good, in fact. I had something to say each time and those moments are gone. He used the physical ailments as excuses to himself. The physical ailments were meant as checks from the beginning. Without spontaneity, he does not operate effectively or well. He has read too, too much along certain lines, and has tried too hard on a conscious level.

He compares himself unfavorably with what seem to him to be more spiritual psychics. They follow their own way. He must follow his own way. And this is the meaning of spirituality.

As a side issue here, he did not feel that dancing was seeming for a psychic, you see.