“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now such associations have an electrical reality, you see, built within your system. Realization of these causes creates an opposing force that can neutralize the original. The words—“Father, I refuse to accept your hay fever for myself; though I once took it, I now throw it free from us both”—these words will help.

Your father used hay fever as a symptom of helplessness, and as a demand for the attention that he did not get, even then, from your mother. The pattern was set earlier in his childhood. He discarded the symptoms because they did not get him what he wanted. Your mother could not be bothered.

You are not helping your father, for the symptoms will not revert to him. Your system will simply reorganize the energy pattern. There was another element. Your mother treated you as hers exclusively. You also adopted the symptoms as a protective measure against her. You said in effect, “I am my father’s son, down to some of his defects.”

When you realize this, again, you will find the symptoms hardly necessary. Your mother basically did not share (smile) your father’s love of the out-of-doors, and you played both ends against the middle. For the symptoms also allowed you to stay indoors with her on many occasions.

All of this information will be immeasurably helpful to you. Your father’s hay fever was a defense also against farm work, you see.

Hay fever was for your father also a defense against the world, for it allowed him some isolation. You can have the necessary privacy without using this symptom to get it. The ink has a symbolic association for you personally, a healing one you see, and its presence, according to my recommendation, has the effect of a mood tonic.

We will go slowly here. You were in the house, in the cellar or on the upper story. You were not on the main floor of the house. The episode involved your father and yourself.

I believe a watch was somehow involved. He lost it, or someone broke it. It may have been his own father’s watch. Perhaps your mother broke it in anger, but I am not sure of this.

His appearance then reminded you of his appearance in hay fever season, and reinforced your own symptoms until they became a symbol of virility, since they were your father’s, and also a symbol of how a man could cry. You do not need such symptoms now.