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(Jane woke up Sunday morning, August 7, with a stiff neck. We attributed a mental cause to it, probably concern over the forthcoming publication of her ESP book.

You can of course improve to a much higher degree than you believe possible. It is natural that at a point such as this, Ruburt’s activities should show in great contrasts. He is not upset basically (Jane got up from her rocker and walked about the room as she spoke, looking for her cigarettes) believe it or not, with the delay in his book publication, though this is the conscious rationalization.

(Laugh.) He is concerned, you see, over the publication of his book, period. He is concerned simply because these strong inner efforts will now become exteriorized to some extent. This is the point that bothers him.

Subconsciously he exaggerates the dangers that will beset him as a result of the publication, and the actual facts will be a relief. He is in many ways extremely individualistic. He fights for what he believes in, but he also has strong docile tendencies, which are usually rather effectively controlled. These rise up, you see however, in direct proportion to the degree of his independent accomplishments, so that he then fears the accumulated results, social results, of what he has done. It is therefore fairly natural that when this accomplishment is being exteriorized he would become frightened of the opinion of his brethren. These are two faces of the same coin.

There will be a rather sudden change of fortune, of which Ruburt is well aware. It is not immediate, but it is inevitable with the publication of the book, and he fears having money, even though he wants it.